Blake

And it's just...

It's one of those things where I just feel like it's all stemming from childhood maybe and just this irrational fear of things.

But we're saving so much money.

We have a lot of savings.

We're in a healthy position financially, yet I can't stop thinking about going broke or losing a job, all these different things.

Constant, constant argument, uh, in the home.

I mean, I, I, I'm the youngest of five boys and we, everybody, all of us were, were involved in adult problems.

So, you know, there was a lot of just craziness and, and a lot of, uh,

Fear of, you know, we were going to lose the house.

My dad, you know, almost lost his job several times because of drunk driving.

We just never had enough money to pay the bill.

I mean, I take that back.

We did when I was really young.

Everything was great.

And then it was ripped away.

So it was like I knew what security felt like at a young age.

And then all of a sudden I didn't.

formalize this or maybe not it is i mean no that's definitely a definitely part of it yeah i would say there was a combination of different things i needed to do some growing up i needed to do certain things and whatnot but it is a little bit of that letting go of that control and yeah you know so the scariest part for you is that the piece you're seeking is on the other side of control

We just have, we have a very modest mortgage and we have her car payment that, I mean, we can pay off, but yeah, that's a whole different story.

Her work pays for it.