Boman Martinez-Reid

But I was telling them, every time I would maladaptive daydream like that, if I was listening to a romantic song or I watched a movie or something and I'd be daydreaming, I was like, I always knew if it was a relationship thing, for example, I knew a man was there,

I never saw a face.

In fact, if it was a movie, like the camera would be over his shoulder and I was only ever looking at myself like in my daydreams.

And I was like, and honestly, like I don't know much, but I know I always had French tips.

fridges and pails because I was like, and they both were laughing.

And I was like, I would just look at myself and I'd be like, wow, look at how beautiful I am.

Oh my God.

I'm going to be so successful and gorgeous.

I guess not.

Because when I joke about it, everyone laughs and they're like, really?

And I go, I'm not kidding.

The man in the picture never had a face.

I never saw what he looked.

I'm sure he was cool.

But for me, I'd only be looking at myself and I'd be like, God, I'm so stunning.

Yeah, the female gaze, looking at myself.

And I was literally like, God, oh my God, wow, amazing.

And I would watch women on TV because I'd always wanted to be in entertainment.

I wanted to be an actress or be something in entertainment.

And I would watch them on TV and I'd be like, God, she's so beautiful.