Brianna (Caller)

48 hours ago, I was pregnant laying on my couch and I felt fine. will I ever feel like a normal person again? Will I ever not be in this pain ever again? It's an irrational fear at that moment, but I remember thinking, I can't even fathom being on the other side of this.

48 hours ago, I was pregnant laying on my couch and I felt fine. will I ever feel like a normal person again? Will I ever not be in this pain ever again? It's an irrational fear at that moment, but I remember thinking, I can't even fathom being on the other side of this.

48 hours ago, I was pregnant laying on my couch and I felt fine. will I ever feel like a normal person again? Will I ever not be in this pain ever again? It's an irrational fear at that moment, but I remember thinking, I can't even fathom being on the other side of this.

The only people that were there were my husband and Elizabeth and the student midwife. I told the student midwife that I didn't think I could do it. I told Elizabeth that, but it was always like, if you feel like you can't, okay. But like, I think you can, you're getting really close. During your tour and during your birth classes, they always say women will say like, I can't do this. I'm done.

The only people that were there were my husband and Elizabeth and the student midwife. I told the student midwife that I didn't think I could do it. I told Elizabeth that, but it was always like, if you feel like you can't, okay. But like, I think you can, you're getting really close. During your tour and during your birth classes, they always say women will say like, I can't do this. I'm done.

The only people that were there were my husband and Elizabeth and the student midwife. I told the student midwife that I didn't think I could do it. I told Elizabeth that, but it was always like, if you feel like you can't, okay. But like, I think you can, you're getting really close. During your tour and during your birth classes, they always say women will say like, I can't do this. I'm done.

They claim that that's their sign that they know you're close. I don't know if that was what was going on in their heads, but I was nowhere close. Without them being in terror over what was happening to me, I just thought, okay, maybe I'm overreacting. So let's just stick it out a little bit longer. I don't want to give up.

They claim that that's their sign that they know you're close. I don't know if that was what was going on in their heads, but I was nowhere close. Without them being in terror over what was happening to me, I just thought, okay, maybe I'm overreacting. So let's just stick it out a little bit longer. I don't want to give up.

They claim that that's their sign that they know you're close. I don't know if that was what was going on in their heads, but I was nowhere close. Without them being in terror over what was happening to me, I just thought, okay, maybe I'm overreacting. So let's just stick it out a little bit longer. I don't want to give up.

I wish I would have advocated better for myself in that moment, but I was in labor. So I didn't advocate for myself and my husband didn't know what to do. He was more concerned about me and the pain that I was in. I tend to be someone who's extremely hard on myself. I wanted to have birth there. I had researched the place. You know, we had invested our money there.

I wish I would have advocated better for myself in that moment, but I was in labor. So I didn't advocate for myself and my husband didn't know what to do. He was more concerned about me and the pain that I was in. I tend to be someone who's extremely hard on myself. I wanted to have birth there. I had researched the place. You know, we had invested our money there.

I wish I would have advocated better for myself in that moment, but I was in labor. So I didn't advocate for myself and my husband didn't know what to do. He was more concerned about me and the pain that I was in. I tend to be someone who's extremely hard on myself. I wanted to have birth there. I had researched the place. You know, we had invested our money there.

My husband and I had been trained to get here. We went to the birth classes. We did all the things. I mean, that was our plan. That was my dream, to give birth there. I knew other people had had good experiences, and I thought, why couldn't I have that same good experience? Why was I going to be the minority who had to go to the hospital and transfer?

My husband and I had been trained to get here. We went to the birth classes. We did all the things. I mean, that was our plan. That was my dream, to give birth there. I knew other people had had good experiences, and I thought, why couldn't I have that same good experience? Why was I going to be the minority who had to go to the hospital and transfer?

My husband and I had been trained to get here. We went to the birth classes. We did all the things. I mean, that was our plan. That was my dream, to give birth there. I knew other people had had good experiences, and I thought, why couldn't I have that same good experience? Why was I going to be the minority who had to go to the hospital and transfer?

And after I had invested so much time in labor, what's another two hours? Without the student or the midwife expressing any concern whatsoever, I thought, well, they're watching out, and if... things are okay, then we're just going to keep going. That's why I powered through. If they told me that things were bad, I would have listened.

And after I had invested so much time in labor, what's another two hours? Without the student or the midwife expressing any concern whatsoever, I thought, well, they're watching out, and if... things are okay, then we're just going to keep going. That's why I powered through. If they told me that things were bad, I would have listened.

And after I had invested so much time in labor, what's another two hours? Without the student or the midwife expressing any concern whatsoever, I thought, well, they're watching out, and if... things are okay, then we're just going to keep going. That's why I powered through. If they told me that things were bad, I would have listened.

Yeah, I remember at around that two in the morning time frame, I looked over at my husband and I said, I'm going to die on this bed. I don't think this baby's coming. I'm bleeding. I cannot stop pushing. It was so painful not to push.

Yeah, I remember at around that two in the morning time frame, I looked over at my husband and I said, I'm going to die on this bed. I don't think this baby's coming. I'm bleeding. I cannot stop pushing. It was so painful not to push.