Bron Lewis

You hate yourself so much.

Yeah.

Even just saying I'm an idiot, I would have said that to myself and so many parents will say that to themselves with a newborn.

50,000 times a day because you've done something where you think, well, this time will be different.

I'll just wipe her nose and she will be fine.

She's asleep.

And then you wipe a little bit of snot and then they wake up and then the whole house is awake.

And you go, I'm an idiot for thinking that I was going to get away with that.

I'm an idiot for thinking there was one thing that was going to go my way.

And then I, so with the girls, it was constant, constant, constant moving and the moving felt, the moving felt like I was getting somewhere.

Like it felt like literally moving was getting me somewhere and I was like, if I just keep going, the days go faster.

And I will – and hopefully something will work, you know.

Hopefully something in this day will go my way.

And I became – like I cleaned the house like constantly.

And one of my friends – I'll never forgive her for it.

She made a joke but it didn't sound like a joke.

She said to me once, God, your house –

It's so messy.

And she had like one baby, like a newborn, like a blob at the time and I had a toddler and a newborn and I was like, what?

She goes, it's so messy.