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And he said, okay, and we'll work with that.

And I said, I don't want to.

And he goes, then I will.

He goes, you look after the girls and I'll look after Ari and we'll be fine.

And I felt like I had – firstly, I felt like I'd ruined my girls' lives.

I was like, well, that's it.

We're never going to have a holiday.

We're going to have a ramp at the front of the house.

We're not going to be – I'm not going to be able to work ever.

Like they'll – I've ruined it.

Everything – I've played with fire.

I had two healthy kids and I went in again.

I was greedy enough to think I was going to –

be lucky enough to have three healthy kids.

Like who the fuck did I think I was going to get three healthy kids?

And I was like, of course I've stuffed it.

And not only did I have this moment of like I've ruined their lives, but I also admitted that I regretted having him.

And Lucas was like, you just calm down because we're going to be fine.

And then I went back into the room and Ari, I just prayed that he was screaming like they said he would.

I was praying, as much pain as he needed to be in, I just needed to hear it.