Carly Pearce

And I'm like dying inside because it was so, I felt like I was trapped in my own body.

You really don't.

Mine was always in interviews.

Now everybody's going to know, but it's like, like I would clear my throat because I just feel like I can't breathe.

And it's, it's interesting to be, and I know you understand, like in the public eye, when the camera's on, it's like, you better shut it down.

And I think that is,

I got really conditioned over the last 10 years to just zip it up and deal with it.

And it just kind of got to a place where a couple of years ago, I just had to really start back into therapy, start really like trying to figure out all of these different things, like recognizing OCD was something, no, that didn't come in 2020.

That's been there since I was six or seven.

I had a mom and she's still like this to this day.

She's the best, but she's a perfectionist.

So like as a child, I would watch her.

I had like Barbie shoes.

This is like a core memory.

And she wanted to put every individual pair of Barbie shoes in the perfect little spot and keep everything, you know, so I learned.

Yeah.

She never left the house without her makeup on.

She was always just so put together that I think that perfectionism just became not, not intent.

She didn't mean to do that to me.

It wasn't like she was like, you have to be this way, but I watched and led by example.