Carol Gable

Well, you can't help but think about that, you know, what might have been. And it's really hard. And that's why this is a very searing, searing story.

Dear Carol, I received your letter and was glad to hear from you.

Dear Carol, I received your letter and was glad to hear from you.

What I was hoping to do is to get some sense of her point of view. We heard lots about her. Many, many people are willing to talk about her.

What I was hoping to do is to get some sense of her point of view. We heard lots about her. Many, many people are willing to talk about her.

But she hasn't spoken much about herself.

But she hasn't spoken much about herself.

I am not a horrible person, Carol. I'm a human being who made a horrible decision. I grieve daily for my boys.

I am not a horrible person, Carol. I'm a human being who made a horrible decision. I grieve daily for my boys.

I cannot remember a time when I did not suffer from depression. Everyone has a breaking point but not everyone reaches theirs. I'm not trying to offer excuses for what happened but neither am I this mean person who harmed her children because she wanted to be with a man who didn't want children.

I cannot remember a time when I did not suffer from depression. Everyone has a breaking point but not everyone reaches theirs. I'm not trying to offer excuses for what happened but neither am I this mean person who harmed her children because she wanted to be with a man who didn't want children.

When they found me, there was a big puddle of blood and I'd written with my blood, let me die. Carol, I truly did want to die at that moment.

When they found me, there was a big puddle of blood and I'd written with my blood, let me die. Carol, I truly did want to die at that moment.

Right now, I'm working in the school as a tutor. I teach math to students trying to get their GED.

Right now, I'm working in the school as a tutor. I teach math to students trying to get their GED.

Oh, sure. I mean, you always have to consider that as a possibility. But over time, she always said the same things. And then change. The facts then change.

Oh, sure. I mean, you always have to consider that as a possibility. But over time, she always said the same things. And then change. The facts then change.

I'd never felt so completely alone as I did that night. I bit all my fingernails off. When I got to the lake, that's when it hit me how I was going to die. Michael and Alex were asleep.

I'd never felt so completely alone as I did that night. I bit all my fingernails off. When I got to the lake, that's when it hit me how I was going to die. Michael and Alex were asleep.

I never saw the car go into the lake. When I reached the top of the hill, I stopped and looked back, and all I could see was a dark lake. You'd never have thought that two little boys had just drowned at their mother's hand.