Caroline Foran

And

In fairness, there was a real reluctance.

Eventually, I was like, I think I need to try medication because I cannot function.

I am not okay.

And I was almost begging for permission just to suffer a little bit less and apologizing for the fact that I had reached this point where I couldn't white knuckle it on my own.

that I couldn't just snap out of it because of the perception that I wasn't trying hard enough or that I was looking for an easy way out.

Medication is not an easy way out.

It is not like it doesn't make everything go away after a few weeks.

Did the medication help you though?

Eventually it did.

So I think where people...

get go wrong with medication or the stigma is that we think of medication as being like Xanax and the fast acting stuff which obviously there's very real concern there that you just rely on that and it becomes addictive I actually wish I could have gone back in time and in those really acute chronic moments of falling apart I wish someone said take a Xanax let's just give you a chance to breathe here and then we can see what steps we need to take but it was such a sense of you have to

Like, what will that mean?

What will that say about you?

So I was terrified.

I really, I was so disappointed in myself to reach the point where I needed medication.

No.

Okay.

No, I didn't.

I was too afraid.