Caroline Foran

But then between like week five and six...

I just started to, well, first of all, my system could just settle down enough to sleep a little bit.

And in the morning, that intensity of dread just was softening.

It was just dissolving a little bit.

It was by no means gone.

It was by no means like resolved.

I had 10 years of work ahead of me to do.

But it meant that I could, there was space there.

I could breathe.

There was a sense, a little bit of sense of we're okay, we're safe.

So that I could then turn to the things that we all turn to so quickly.

That wouldn't have been effective without that because I was drowning.

Like I was, I got really, really low.

I didn't want to be here anymore.

Did you?

The depression was kind of a side effect of the anxiety because I was so convinced that I was broken, that something was wrong with me because I didn't see it reflected anywhere else.

This is 2014, like no one was... But undiagnosed anxiety and chronic anxiety can lead to depression.

That kind of jarred with me because I was a very happy person, but I so desperately didn't want to live if that was what our life was going to be because I couldn't even go and get milk without having a severe panic attack.

And there was no clear path forward for me.

And that is so scary.