Charlize Theron

Like I would just get out of the shower and reach for a towel and it would lock and I would be in bed for five days not being able to move.

I think I was so worn down by the end of the eight years that if they weren't going to do it, I was going to like go to a country and get it done where they wouldn't allow it to happen.

I was that desperate.

I was also, you know, I shared with my doctor.

Because I was on a lot of opioids and things like that.

I was about to ask.

And you would think with my dad as well, like the worry of addiction.

Thank God I don't have an issue with addiction and that I didn't become addicted to them.

But I think back now and I just go like that was just so irresponsible in a weird way with myself.

The fact that I was just thinking I can kind of, I would be able to control this somehow.

You know, if that were my reality, I would then probably not want to throw myself and become an action star.

I would want to protect myself from injury and those kinds of issues.

Why do you think you went in the opposite direction?

I think...

I wasn't going to let anything take away from my life.

There's a spirit about me that, and I think some of it maybe has to do with the fact that I experienced so much death early on.

I'm very aware that time runs out really quickly and that time can run out as soon as I walk out of this building.

I can cross a street and it's done.

I'm so hyper aware of that.

I live my life every single day like that.