Chloe Kelly

But actually, that was fine.

It was my head that was struggling.

I was struggling mentally.

So yeah, to take a step away from the game was what I needed.

But it wasn't that.

It was I needed to take a step out of an environment and go to an environment which made me happy.

So yeah.

For sure, I feel in a good place now, but I'll never forget the times where I did struggle and to struggle, I think it made me realise how good the highs felt as well.

So you appreciate them a lot more and the summer and the Champions League win, I think that allowed me to enjoy even more because I know how much mentally it took to get to that point and the people around me that got me out of that and

yeah I remember my mom coming up to Liverpool where I lived at the time and she'd come up for a few days and she's like no I can't leave you like you're you're not you're not in a good place and that for me I was like wow like my mom's noticing it now and I didn't want to speak up I remember just going in the dark I loved sitting in the dark and I was like this isn't okay I just liked being by myself in quiet and sitting in the dark yeah

And I got to a point in my anxiety where I couldn't get off the bathroom floor because I was just being sick.

I tried taking the dogs for a walk, going for a walk late at night, colouring in.

And it wasn't like an eating disorder or anything like that.

And it was like a vicious cycle because I didn't want to feel anxious and I didn't want to throw up.

But when I felt anxious...

I felt like I needed to be sick.

And then when I started going to the psychiatrist, it was, this is the breathing that we can do.

And these are the ways that we can get out of it together and journaling and things like that.

So I think for me, it was learning so much about my body at the time, but also at times there was one occasion I remember where

Scott got me off the bathroom floor and put me onto the hallway and he was like if you're in the bathroom you will throw up so we're going into the hallway and you're not just going to stay in here so it was Scott literally just taking me out of the bathroom and being like no you're not going to do it but it was yeah trying to journal what was going on and that helped me a lot but