Chloe Shih

um but then she left and then a new person came in that became really toxic so i think there's this theme of uh leaders in every organization i'm part of rising and seeing me as a threat and then i got bullied a lot in the in those positions of like power i guess in all almost in a lot of my non-profit leadership

groups and in dance anything that became a recurring theme wherever I went because I think I'm surprisingly outspoken and I will see this like policy or rule set or behavior and then I would call it out anything that's really jolting for people who perceive me as someone who's extremely like a cinnamon roll yeah

Yes.

Okay.

But you said something was... My Claremont dance was very toxic.

Uh, I was working with these other co-founders of the dance group and I think I dedicated a lot of, uh, I really wanted this to be the best dance crew in all the Claremonts.

And I think there was moments of them just like yelling at me for random things or, uh, not wanting me to be a center for, you know, how there's like dance choreo who gets to be center and

There's direction on when practices are or creative choices for what commitments we make.

How do we do scheduling?

So in that sense, toxic felt hostile in when we would discuss decisions and like,

There would be profanity and there would be putting you down and putting your opinions down.

And then to a point where confrontations had to be made.

I'm like trying to go back in time.

I was so long ago.

Yeah, I'm trying to remember what happened.

I just remember invisible, completely invisible, even though I was a founding member.

And then knowing that I would never want to be in that position again.

And then I think of being invisible or being a founding member.

Well, I think so.

I just didn't want to deal with that.