Chris Fettes

Thank you. I'm not pissed at all. I'm grateful. And I need to go catch up, and I didn't catch that, but now I need to go.

Thank you. I'm not pissed at all. I'm grateful. And I need to go catch up, and I didn't catch that, but now I need to go.

Thank you. I'm not pissed at all. I'm grateful. And I need to go catch up, and I didn't catch that, but now I need to go.

Absolutely. One thing that surprised me was how much about myself I did not even know or understand, like to the core, with my identity as Special Forces guy, SEAL, and how much effort it was going to take for me to learn that. That's one.

Absolutely. One thing that surprised me was how much about myself I did not even know or understand, like to the core, with my identity as Special Forces guy, SEAL, and how much effort it was going to take for me to learn that. That's one.

Absolutely. One thing that surprised me was how much about myself I did not even know or understand, like to the core, with my identity as Special Forces guy, SEAL, and how much effort it was going to take for me to learn that. That's one.

I think that I realized it, you know, that's hard to put a finger on because it was almost like a collective knowing all of a sudden, but it only came the day that I was almost at rock bottom, that I was at rock bottom, that I realized, holy shit, I can just make a decision right now, right? And just the collective memory of the first couple of years of being out, just like,

I think that I realized it, you know, that's hard to put a finger on because it was almost like a collective knowing all of a sudden, but it only came the day that I was almost at rock bottom, that I was at rock bottom, that I realized, holy shit, I can just make a decision right now, right? And just the collective memory of the first couple of years of being out, just like,

I think that I realized it, you know, that's hard to put a finger on because it was almost like a collective knowing all of a sudden, but it only came the day that I was almost at rock bottom, that I was at rock bottom, that I realized, holy shit, I can just make a decision right now, right? And just the collective memory of the first couple of years of being out, just like,

knowing that i wasn't what i was supposed to be right and that i was not even close to to figuring that out like it just felt like it was getting worse over time and it was um so there wasn't really like a pinpoint moment but you know there was things i was doing there was you know in my marriage, with my kids, and the addictions that I had just compounded on each other.

knowing that i wasn't what i was supposed to be right and that i was not even close to to figuring that out like it just felt like it was getting worse over time and it was um so there wasn't really like a pinpoint moment but you know there was things i was doing there was you know in my marriage, with my kids, and the addictions that I had just compounded on each other.

knowing that i wasn't what i was supposed to be right and that i was not even close to to figuring that out like it just felt like it was getting worse over time and it was um so there wasn't really like a pinpoint moment but you know there was things i was doing there was you know in my marriage, with my kids, and the addictions that I had just compounded on each other.

It has a compounding effect that I think that once you sense that you've lost your purpose of what you were, you can feel those a lot more now because there's not some outlet for it at work anymore. And that's when it got bad. So I'd say in the first year or two, the first two years, because I was focused on my new job and what I was doing.

It has a compounding effect that I think that once you sense that you've lost your purpose of what you were, you can feel those a lot more now because there's not some outlet for it at work anymore. And that's when it got bad. So I'd say in the first year or two, the first two years, because I was focused on my new job and what I was doing.

It has a compounding effect that I think that once you sense that you've lost your purpose of what you were, you can feel those a lot more now because there's not some outlet for it at work anymore. And that's when it got bad. So I'd say in the first year or two, the first two years, because I was focused on my new job and what I was doing.

And I was really confused about that, to be honest with you, too. I learned pretty quickly that that job, and it wasn't that job specifically I have anything against. It was just that... I knew I wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing. And that's a really shitty feeling. And trying to go, you just feel lost. So what am I supposed to be doing?

And I was really confused about that, to be honest with you, too. I learned pretty quickly that that job, and it wasn't that job specifically I have anything against. It was just that... I knew I wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing. And that's a really shitty feeling. And trying to go, you just feel lost. So what am I supposed to be doing?

And I was really confused about that, to be honest with you, too. I learned pretty quickly that that job, and it wasn't that job specifically I have anything against. It was just that... I knew I wasn't doing what I was supposed to be doing. And that's a really shitty feeling. And trying to go, you just feel lost. So what am I supposed to be doing?

That morphing back into yourself, I think what I've learned is that the consequences of doing that are going to make people mad and angry. Because you now, it's almost seen as a false betrayal in my opinion. Like you're betraying the code. Mm-hmm.

That morphing back into yourself, I think what I've learned is that the consequences of doing that are going to make people mad and angry. Because you now, it's almost seen as a false betrayal in my opinion. Like you're betraying the code. Mm-hmm.