Christian Ray Flores

Okay, so I, you know, the peculiarity about me is that I literally grew up and you'll probably find almost zero people in the United States who can say the same thing, unless they're an immigrant from like a communist country, is that until I was probably 20, in my early 20s, I knew zero people who believed in God.

Okay, so I, you know, the peculiarity about me is that I literally grew up and you'll probably find almost zero people in the United States who can say the same thing, unless they're an immigrant from like a communist country, is that until I was probably 20, in my early 20s, I knew zero people who believed in God.

And you have to just really let that sink in to even understand, okay, what are the ripple effects of a culture like that, where everybody is godless, essentially, right? It doesn't even matter which faith, but just in general, it's an atheistic cultural baseline. Now, there's, of course, it's not zero people, but I knew zero people, you know.

And you have to just really let that sink in to even understand, okay, what are the ripple effects of a culture like that, where everybody is godless, essentially, right? It doesn't even matter which faith, but just in general, it's an atheistic cultural baseline. Now, there's, of course, it's not zero people, but I knew zero people, you know.

And what happened with me is that, you know, I became very successful as an artist. And I was literally entertaining millions of people, selling millions of albums and playing sports arenas. And there are these foundational dimensions of your humanity that were basically underdeveloped in me because there was no faith, right? There was no moral framework.

And what happened with me is that, you know, I became very successful as an artist. And I was literally entertaining millions of people, selling millions of albums and playing sports arenas. And there are these foundational dimensions of your humanity that were basically underdeveloped in me because there was no faith, right? There was no moral framework.

There was not these almost like meta structures of, is there anything bigger than me? Does that anything care about me? How do I fit into the picture? Why am I here? What does that mean for my relationships? What does that mean about power and talent and money and love and sex?

There was not these almost like meta structures of, is there anything bigger than me? Does that anything care about me? How do I fit into the picture? Why am I here? What does that mean for my relationships? What does that mean about power and talent and money and love and sex?

All of those things were almost like devoid of faith that is thousands of years old and have sort of perpetuated and breathed and lived within humanity. And you go, oh, this is just abstract sort of lofty sort of ideas, but it has a very real consequence, right? Because here I am, a pop star. I'm doing all this stuff. My ego is super inflated. There's nothing bigger than me in my mind.

All of those things were almost like devoid of faith that is thousands of years old and have sort of perpetuated and breathed and lived within humanity. And you go, oh, this is just abstract sort of lofty sort of ideas, but it has a very real consequence, right? Because here I am, a pop star. I'm doing all this stuff. My ego is super inflated. There's nothing bigger than me in my mind.

I don't know what to do with marriage because I come from three generations of broken homes. No one taught me. anything about this, right? I don't understand submission to authority. My dad wasn't there since I was 14, and the whole faith, like obedience out of faith, out of adoration, out of love, nonexistent. And the effect is, I don't know my way around X, Y, and Z, right?

I don't know what to do with marriage because I come from three generations of broken homes. No one taught me. anything about this, right? I don't understand submission to authority. My dad wasn't there since I was 14, and the whole faith, like obedience out of faith, out of adoration, out of love, nonexistent. And the effect is, I don't know my way around X, Y, and Z, right?

I am in the top 0.1% of performers and attainers, like just crushing it. And I'm completely inadequate in the most basic things like marriage, for example, right? So I'm dating all these girls. I have no idea what I'm doing. I basically sabotage every relationship I'm in. And I'm fearful of commitment. And also, just like any human being, I want love. I want family.

I am in the top 0.1% of performers and attainers, like just crushing it. And I'm completely inadequate in the most basic things like marriage, for example, right? So I'm dating all these girls. I have no idea what I'm doing. I basically sabotage every relationship I'm in. And I'm fearful of commitment. And also, just like any human being, I want love. I want family.

I want that warmth, you know, that belonging that comes with it. And I don't know how to get there. So I want it. I date. It gets too close to intimacy. I'm afraid that it's going to end up in divorce. I sabotage it. Rinse and repeat. Okay. I meet a girl. She gets pregnant. I treat her like crap. She leaves me, cuts me off from my oldest daughter, Deanna.

I want that warmth, you know, that belonging that comes with it. And I don't know how to get there. So I want it. I date. It gets too close to intimacy. I'm afraid that it's going to end up in divorce. I sabotage it. Rinse and repeat. Okay. I meet a girl. She gets pregnant. I treat her like crap. She leaves me, cuts me off from my oldest daughter, Deanna.

I'm now pop star, entertaining millions, clinically depressed. Don't know how to breathe. Forget creativity. Forget high performers, performance. Forget genius. Forget thriving. You see how even a high performer can go into a deep hole if they don't fix some other areas of life, right? I meet this Canadian missionary. His name's Andy.

I'm now pop star, entertaining millions, clinically depressed. Don't know how to breathe. Forget creativity. Forget high performers, performance. Forget genius. Forget thriving. You see how even a high performer can go into a deep hole if they don't fix some other areas of life, right? I meet this Canadian missionary. His name's Andy.

And I look at his family and I'm like, just teach me how to do this. And he's like, well, are you open to, you know, listening to the Bible? And I'm like, well, it's sort of an old book. I don't really believe in it. It's sort of, but if I get what you have, sure. And basically that's how I came into the faith, you know? Mm-hmm.

And I look at his family and I'm like, just teach me how to do this. And he's like, well, are you open to, you know, listening to the Bible? And I'm like, well, it's sort of an old book. I don't really believe in it. It's sort of, but if I get what you have, sure. And basically that's how I came into the faith, you know? Mm-hmm.