Ciarán

The stress the phone call gives you because you're ringing places and you're left on hold and your anxiety builds up dreadful.

That's my experience with it as well, the anxiety.

And, you know, all sorts of people around you, all the people that love you, they go through an awful time as well because I went to rock bottom.

my experience when I was in the ICU, I was rushed down when five minutes I was down in the ICU and I couldn't tell you, Ciarán, the experience I had.

I kept my eyes closed right through what was happening down there because I went to rock bottom and I thought I was a goner, you know, and I could hear the team talking and I got afraid from the way they were talking and saying, this man, we have to save this man.

And suddenly I just came out and all I saw with my eyes closed was the colour gold and I

Five minutes later, I started to feel I was coming back over.

So they're all things, the problem that I suffer now.

I get terrible fright when I think about that, you know what I mean?

I'm 59.

Well, I hope so, you know.

But,

It's, you know, we need to get groups in each county of Ireland that, you know, and then maybe we should all meet, you know, support one another.

Because, you know, on WhatsApp you can, you know, you can get someone that's feeling lousy.

You know, you get times.

I go to bed every day at half four and I get back up at eight o'clock because I have to.

I wouldn't survive.

Yeah, I wouldn't survive the night.

It's, you know, people need to be aware of

And I think everyone, you know, I knew nothing about sepsis and I know so much about it now.