Conor Niland

I guess, and that was one of the things that I felt a relief when I finished playing was the self-analysis, the constant self-analysis when you're a tennis player, probably with every sport, kind of went away.

It's the 24-7 nature of it.

It's tied to who you feel like you are.

If you're winning, you're happy.

As I said earlier, when I'm losing, I'm not.

so yeah that self-worth it was absolutely tight and it always makes me laugh when i when you hear the top players um when they say they've won one wimbledon they say it's the greatest moment of my career they never say it's the great greatest moment of my life and i don't know whether they're trying to do some sort of a psychological trick with that wording as if

their career and their life are very separate.

Like clearly winning Wimbledon when you're 23 has to be the greatest moment of your life so far, but they're quite keen to show, and maybe it's a little bit of a posturing that this is only the greatest moment of my tennis career.

It's not the greatest moment of my life.

So I find that, I always find that wording quite interesting.

So for me, it was so wrapped up and entwined in who I felt I was.