Cory Richards

I took a photograph after this of my face.

Right. And this story blew up well beyond the climbing world. And so that very much launched my life and career into a new phase, which was very, very positive and generative and changed the course of everything for me. At the same time, it triggered all of that internal turmoil that I was living with. And so I started to unravel internally.

Right. And this story blew up well beyond the climbing world. And so that very much launched my life and career into a new phase, which was very, very positive and generative and changed the course of everything for me. At the same time, it triggered all of that internal turmoil that I was living with. And so I started to unravel internally.

Right. And this story blew up well beyond the climbing world. And so that very much launched my life and career into a new phase, which was very, very positive and generative and changed the course of everything for me. At the same time, it triggered all of that internal turmoil that I was living with. And so I started to unravel internally.

there was the hyper stimulation of the external world, which was something that I knew how to navigate because of childhood. And yet the trauma inside started leading me down some very, very dark paths, specifically with substance abuse. And after this experience, after the, after the avalanche, but it was subtle and then it kind of grew. And then it, there was anger. There was a lack of memory.

there was the hyper stimulation of the external world, which was something that I knew how to navigate because of childhood. And yet the trauma inside started leading me down some very, very dark paths, specifically with substance abuse. And after this experience, after the, after the avalanche, but it was subtle and then it kind of grew. And then it, there was anger. There was a lack of memory.

there was the hyper stimulation of the external world, which was something that I knew how to navigate because of childhood. And yet the trauma inside started leading me down some very, very dark paths, specifically with substance abuse. And after this experience, after the, after the avalanche, but it was subtle and then it kind of grew. And then it, there was anger. There was a lack of memory.

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You went into a darker... Well, I wanted that. Again, they existed concurrently, right? So I wanted intellectually... The new lease on life. But what I was experiencing internally was, why is this getting harder? Why is this actually louder in my brain? So I used the external success, again, to quiet that down. But internally, I was like, give me anything to make this stop.

You went into a darker... Well, I wanted that. Again, they existed concurrently, right? So I wanted intellectually... The new lease on life. But what I was experiencing internally was, why is this getting harder? Why is this actually louder in my brain? So I used the external success, again, to quiet that down. But internally, I was like, give me anything to make this stop.

You went into a darker... Well, I wanted that. Again, they existed concurrently, right? So I wanted intellectually... The new lease on life. But what I was experiencing internally was, why is this getting harder? Why is this actually louder in my brain? So I used the external success, again, to quiet that down. But internally, I was like, give me anything to make this stop.

just like give me anything and when you say this can you kind of describe what this feels like it's like an internal hum that never goes away it's like a it's like the way i describe it in the book it's like the the the edges of the world become fragmented and sharp and yet there's a dullness to your perception and ability to function it's like living in a haze

just like give me anything and when you say this can you kind of describe what this feels like it's like an internal hum that never goes away it's like a it's like the way i describe it in the book it's like the the the edges of the world become fragmented and sharp and yet there's a dullness to your perception and ability to function it's like living in a haze

just like give me anything and when you say this can you kind of describe what this feels like it's like an internal hum that never goes away it's like a it's like the way i describe it in the book it's like the the the edges of the world become fragmented and sharp and yet there's a dullness to your perception and ability to function it's like living in a haze

where you've had too much coffee, you've gotten yelled at by somebody that you love. It's like all the worst shit, and so you're stuck in these rumination loops, having conversations and arguments with the person that cut you off in the Whole Foods parking lot. But it's like all the time. It's just so deeply uncomfortable. It's like jagged edges.

where you've had too much coffee, you've gotten yelled at by somebody that you love. It's like all the worst shit, and so you're stuck in these rumination loops, having conversations and arguments with the person that cut you off in the Whole Foods parking lot. But it's like all the time. It's just so deeply uncomfortable. It's like jagged edges.

where you've had too much coffee, you've gotten yelled at by somebody that you love. It's like all the worst shit, and so you're stuck in these rumination loops, having conversations and arguments with the person that cut you off in the Whole Foods parking lot. But it's like all the time. It's just so deeply uncomfortable. It's like jagged edges.

In your mind that is ceaseless and constant and will never, ever shut the fuck up. You can't find a moment of calm.