Cory Richards

as i grew into adolescence there was a lot of violence in my home and it was it was between my brother and i he was only two years older but to me he was like he was my adult you know my parents were loving they did the absolute best they could but families are

as i grew into adolescence there was a lot of violence in my home and it was it was between my brother and i he was only two years older but to me he was like he was my adult you know my parents were loving they did the absolute best they could but families are

as i grew into adolescence there was a lot of violence in my home and it was it was between my brother and i he was only two years older but to me he was like he was my adult you know my parents were loving they did the absolute best they could but families are

crazy intricate the dynamics of families are wildly complicated yeah you throw a bunch of humans with unsolved tasks into a small container and daily basis yeah see what happens and so that violence it was it wasn't as simple as brothers beating each other up it was it was rage-based violence and rage i would actually say was the more traumatic component of that

crazy intricate the dynamics of families are wildly complicated yeah you throw a bunch of humans with unsolved tasks into a small container and daily basis yeah see what happens and so that violence it was it wasn't as simple as brothers beating each other up it was it was rage-based violence and rage i would actually say was the more traumatic component of that

crazy intricate the dynamics of families are wildly complicated yeah you throw a bunch of humans with unsolved tasks into a small container and daily basis yeah see what happens and so that violence it was it wasn't as simple as brothers beating each other up it was it was rage-based violence and rage i would actually say was the more traumatic component of that

And it was his rage that perpetuated it. But then I learned also that when he beat the hell out of me, I got attention. So for many years, from my parents, we both did, right? So it was a means of having our emotional needs met, both of us. But then because I looked like the victim, the attention that he was getting was very detrimental to his sort of sense of wellbeing and self value.

And it was his rage that perpetuated it. But then I learned also that when he beat the hell out of me, I got attention. So for many years, from my parents, we both did, right? So it was a means of having our emotional needs met, both of us. But then because I looked like the victim, the attention that he was getting was very detrimental to his sort of sense of wellbeing and self value.

And it was his rage that perpetuated it. But then I learned also that when he beat the hell out of me, I got attention. So for many years, from my parents, we both did, right? So it was a means of having our emotional needs met, both of us. But then because I looked like the victim, the attention that he was getting was very detrimental to his sort of sense of wellbeing and self value.

And I learned that, well, if I feed into this, then guess what? Like I get all the attention. I get all that soft attention. But ultimately, it didn't work. It just amplified the violence. And then I remember I was 12 and I just had this moment this night. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't just I was so unsettled.

And I learned that, well, if I feed into this, then guess what? Like I get all the attention. I get all that soft attention. But ultimately, it didn't work. It just amplified the violence. And then I remember I was 12 and I just had this moment this night. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't just I was so unsettled.

And I learned that, well, if I feed into this, then guess what? Like I get all the attention. I get all that soft attention. But ultimately, it didn't work. It just amplified the violence. And then I remember I was 12 and I just had this moment this night. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't just I was so unsettled.

And I was I was in my family's den and my mind just sped up to the point where I couldn't track anything.

And I was I was in my family's den and my mind just sped up to the point where I couldn't track anything.

And I was I was in my family's den and my mind just sped up to the point where I couldn't track anything.

my thoughts and it was almost it was just these almost flashes of of black and white and the only thing i could remember is i could track it to my heart beating the noise was so profound and i remember just sort of collapsing and pulling at my hair and trying to make sense of it and it was at this time that you know i was a smart kid i went to high school two years early

my thoughts and it was almost it was just these almost flashes of of black and white and the only thing i could remember is i could track it to my heart beating the noise was so profound and i remember just sort of collapsing and pulling at my hair and trying to make sense of it and it was at this time that you know i was a smart kid i went to high school two years early

my thoughts and it was almost it was just these almost flashes of of black and white and the only thing i could remember is i could track it to my heart beating the noise was so profound and i remember just sort of collapsing and pulling at my hair and trying to make sense of it and it was at this time that you know i was a smart kid i went to high school two years early

And I'd gone from getting straight A's to basically failing everything. And so then that was the first time I was medicated with SSRIs. And then about, God, I'd say about a year later, eight months later, my mom was like, hey, can we go to primary children's hospital and sort of try to get a handle on this? And I knew something was wrong, so... or something was off.

And I'd gone from getting straight A's to basically failing everything. And so then that was the first time I was medicated with SSRIs. And then about, God, I'd say about a year later, eight months later, my mom was like, hey, can we go to primary children's hospital and sort of try to get a handle on this? And I knew something was wrong, so... or something was off.