Courtney
Appearances
20/20
The Code Breakers
And I was the baby, so, like, everybody wanted to take care of the baby. And, you know, like, it's still that way.
20/20
The Code Breakers
He was young, just starting out, and this was really the only cold case in our town.
20/20
The Code Breakers
Beautiful, happy-go-lucky. She did love like ACDC, Metallica. She was like a little rock and roll girl. And everybody tells me that I was like her whole world.
20/20
The Code Breakers
Yeah, growing up, most kids, you know, they look at people and they don't have to think, is that the man that killed your mom? And everybody that I met, that's the first thing that would pop into my mind.
20/20
The Code Breakers
Mm-hmm. It was awful for somebody to do what they did to her knowing I was in the crib right next door. I just couldn't believe that somebody could do that.
20/20
The Code Breakers
Yeah. When the police got there unseen, I was dry, I didn't have a dirty diaper on, and it was some hours I was alone.
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The Code Breakers
There was handprints of her trying to hold the door closed, and she just wasn't strong enough.
20/20
The Code Breakers
I got a phone call from Sam Smallcomb, and he said, we may have the guy that killed your mom.
20/20
The Code Breakers
Yeah. Makes me mad that I wasn't old enough to help her. I'm 100% convinced she was trying to save her baby, because I feel like she would have just ran outside and yelled. But I was upstairs, and she wasn't going to leave that apartment without me.
20/20
The Code Breakers
There was just so many emotions and everything going on that I was just overwhelmed and so excited because finally they had him.
20/20
The Code Breakers
I honestly think she knew him then, obviously, because he was friends with Mike, and he was in town and tried to come see my mom, and she wasn't having it.
20/20
The Code Breakers
I don't think I would have said anything. I just think I would have walked in and my presence is enough words for him.
20/20
The Code Breakers
I have been living with this for 36 years and these people, they took their time. They solved this case with DNA so I can close this book and open up my own book with my own kids. And that's, there's no words for that.
20/20
The Code Breakers
I grew up in the bowling alley. I spent a lot of time there. I was raised by my grandparents. They tried to fill the void as much as they could.
20/20
The Code Breakers
About first grade, they had told me that a bad man had hurt my mom and she was up in heaven. And when it would thunderstorm, they would tell me that that was my mom up in heaven, owing a strike. So it was pretty cool watching the thunderstorms as I was little, because I'm like, oh, she must be bowling pretty good today.
20/20
The Code Breakers
I do remember pictures of our first Christmas tree and she had presents under there for me, but she never got to give them to me.
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The Code Breakers
I do bring the kids out here for like holidays, her birthday, but I also do come out here a lot by myself too.
Get Sleepy: Sleep meditation and stories
Walking through the Ruins of Great Zimbabwe
With the Galaxy Watch 7 or the Galaxy Ring and the Samsung Health app.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
Yeah, so I would say, you know, it's one of those things where I'm certain I did have a telepathic relationship with my brother because one of my brothers on the spectrum is nonverbal and the other one is verbal and super high functioning. So looking back over the years, we were always very close, very, very close.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
And I always knew there was an exchange of information and energy between us that didn't need words. But I would say also that I wasn't in a space where I would necessarily hear his voice or hear what he had to say. It was more of an energetic exchange. And then as I have just grown as a...
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
you know, as a practitioner in the metaphysical aspect and realms and, you know, really gotten into meditation and other things along those lines of just opening up my consciousness, I would say that, you know, things come to you when you are open enough. And so perhaps that's why it didn't jar me at all when he popped in.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
But to be very specific and say, I've had an experience just like that before, you I'd say no. It was very, very much a new experience for me in that sense. But all of the work that I've done leading up to it around opening myself up and being open to what does come in and out probably lessened the impact, if you will.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
So the experience has been actually just absolutely amazing, to be honest with you. I mean, to be apprehensive, right, initially to even share that this experience happened. And like, I... I shared it with somebody else who shared it with her, right? So there's definitely some apprehension about that.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
But knowing that she was so open and then having that opportunity to chat with her and find out that we have so many similarities and just recognizing, too, that our lives somewhat mirror each other in certain areas. And so... It was just it's been wonderful getting to know her and getting to know Cyrus as well.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
And just recognizing that I have a new friend who's kind of on my frequency, if you will, who is not scared of believing in things that are unseen and is open to so many possibilities that are, you know, are nonverbal things. friends share with us.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
But it's really nice to be able to connect with her as a mom and then also to spend a little bit of time with Cyrus on occasion just to, you know, to see him, to kind of share space with him in a different way, in the physical way, if you will, like between, you know, when he's present standing in front of me and then also to continue to have conversations because he'll still tap in.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
Now that we're like connected, he will tap in and be like, hey, give my mom a call. That happened two weeks ago. And I was like, yeah, I know. I'm so sorry. I'm really busy right now. So... But I've been thinking about her. He's like, yeah, I know.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
And to still also, you know, those days when I wake up and if something's just off and I can't shift it or clear it myself in my morning meditations before I start my day, I reach out to him. And within minutes, the pain subsides. And so it's just such...
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
Uh, it's so reassuring to know that these lovely individuals are in my life and that at a moment's notice anywhere I can reach out and kind of, you know, connect with them both. And I feel like this is a connection that will last for the rest of my life because how do you, you know...
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
How do you give something like this up when somebody understands you so well and you understand them so well and you just met a little while ago? If individuals are interested in opening up and connecting and becoming more of a conduit for this type of communication with this brilliant and immensely special population that is here to help us all evolve because we've got it backwards.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
You know, they're the round peg we're trying to fit into like a little box and we just need to follow them.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
You lay back and have like lovely chairs and you hang out. There are computers all around and there's a program that they run through and the concept behind it. And again, somebody from the center would be able to explain it a lot better than us. But the concept behind it is that it creates the optimal environment for our bodies to repair themselves. So that's why it's so peaceful.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
So I was in the waiting room hanging out and just chatting with Annie, who's one of the wonderful individuals there who kind of helps run the center. And then Chris and Cyrus came in. I didn't know them. They came in and I saw... I just recognized immediately that Cyrus was probably nonverbal. And I have two brothers that are on the spectrum, one of them being a nonverbal man who's in his 40s.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
And so as soon as I saw them together, I was like, oh... it's my people. And I just like observed and just watched and just kind of like, you know, smiled and everything like that. And I remember just kind of sitting there and observing and watching them do their thing.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
And then when I was in the room and in my space, just kind of zoning out and meditating and whatnot, that's when Cyrus like popped into my head. It was like, Hey, it was like, hi, how are you? And we had this conversation and he just started talking about what he wanted to say to his mom. And just, we had this exchange of information as well.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
One of the main issues was that I was in there and he was chatting with me and I have a reoccurring shoulder issue. And that was the first time that he, you know, he came up and I was like, yeah, my shoulder hurts and goes, well, And he just put his hand on it. And he's like, I can help with that. Let me take care of this. And he went ahead and put it on.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
He's like, again, it's like his energetic hand on my shoulder. And within a minute or so, the pain was gone. And then after that... He asked me to give him something and it was just kind of like this, you know, this shape and energy and he was just holding it. But the energy within the shape was kind of just rotating and almost like a gyroscope.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
And he was just holding it and you could tell that it was just grounding for him to have this like metaphysical shape that he was holding, if you will. And then so when... when everything wrapped up, I believe both Cyrus and Prisa had already left. And that's when I told Annie, I said, you know, he has some messages for his mom and he just wants her to know everything's going to be okay.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
She doesn't have to worry so much anymore. And, And Annie was like, oh my gosh, are you okay if I share this with them? I was like, yeah, go ahead. Like if they're open to it, because you don't know who's open to different messages like that. You know, this is a lovely center, but everybody's on their different paths and has their different beliefs.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
And some people come just for healing and, you know, medical purposes and other people are open to the metaphysical aspect of things. And so Annie was wonderful and you know, shared the message the very following day because she knew that Parisa and Cyrus were coming back in on Monday.
The Telepathy Tapes
Talk Tracks Ep 10: Healing Through Telepathy
My name is Courtney, and we know each other just by chance, actually, in meeting each other at Infinity Energetics in San Jose, which is kind of like an energy center and meditation center, if you will.
This American Life
758: Talking While Black
I've never spoken before, so this is about the Jerry Craft book? I'm sure you all know about that.
This American Life
758: Talking While Black
Even though the books will be placed on shelves again, I am concerned to what led to them being removed. Can you count on your hand and tell me how many people of color you've ever had at your home? If you're having trouble or just can't remember a day or time, please tell me, what do you possibly know about what's wrong with a book you've never lived?
This American Life
758: Talking While Black
Have you ever went to work for two years and have someone call you Brittany every morning? I have because my name is Courtney. You know the correlation if you've read the book New Kid by Jerry Craft. Did you read it? Have you ever served this great country? In the Washington, D.C.
This American Life
758: Talking While Black
inauguration of 2000, Korea 2001, Iraq 2003, Afghanistan 2015, Fort Hood 2016, only to have your 15-year-old twin son call you in the middle of a workday saying he doesn't like his pay-to-high school and learn that the doctor visits of anxiety and stomach pains for the last 12 months were only due to a white teen calling your son the N-word for the last year of 2018. Well, I have.
This American Life
758: Talking While Black
If you read the book, you'd understand the correlation once again of the Oreo joke. How dare you 444 signatures remove what little representation my culture has to show its reality in literature form on the modern day shelves. I don't applaud you for placing the books back on the shelves.
This American Life
758: Talking While Black
My only hope is that you not allow the unknown and false narratives to sway your judgment on needed representation of us all. Representation does matter. Please don't thank me for my service. I do it because I love it. Many friends and battles have died and bled for it. As for Katy ISD, do what you should
This American Life
758: Talking While Black
and need to do to uphold the standards of fairness, justice, and representation for this school district. So I can thank you for yours. Thank you.