Dan Houser

I don't know.

Some days intensely and some days not at all.

I would love to stay alive long enough to see my kids properly grow up and settled, of course, for them.

Aside from that, some days I feel spiritually connected to the universe and not afraid of death at all.

And other days I feel like a sort of random piece of good luck who's going to get struck down by an angry fate and turn to nothingness and that terrifies me.

I just...

Yeah, that is terrifying.

I mean, I tend to, you know, I've spent long periods of my life tormented by that stuff.

The last few years, I tend to believe there is a purpose and a point to life and that we have some kind of...

spiritual or soul-based existence.

I'm not quite sure if it matters if there is a God or not.

We should probably live our lives the same way either way.

But I tend to think that there is a metaphysical purpose to life, and part of that purpose is to search for the purpose.

But at other points, if you read too much science, you get wrapped up in the nothingness of it all.

That's a really interesting question because it's obviously both.

You know, times it's both or times it's one or the other.

When things are going well, when you feel alive, when you feel like you're connected to things, when you're seeing beauty in people and joy in experiences, of course it's wonderful when you're feeling like, you know, bereft and set adrift by the world and that you can't connect it to in some way and you're lost and abandoned by

god or consciousness or fate or whatever it is it's awful you know when i feel like a dreadful hack which is most of the time you know it's terrible you'd rather not be doing this rubbish and then sometimes you're working creatively and it feels good and you feel like you're doing the right thing and it feels fantastic but that's not very often

No.

No, of course not.