David Senra

There was a lot of sadness at what had happened, at what had been done, and what I had done to myself.

But there was good news also.

How resilient I'd been.

How I'd turned so much of it into music, into love, and smiles.

I'd mostly beaten the hell out of myself and my loved ones.

However, I understood what had recently drawn me so far down had also rallied to my defense as a child, had covered my heart and provided shelter when I needed it.

For that, I was thankful.

But now those wayward blessings were standing squarely between me and a home and a life that I needed.

The question was, could I tolerate those things?

I needed to find out.

This is where the entire book comes together.

So he starts meeting with Dr. Wayne Myers.

And over many meetings and long distance phone calls during the next 25 years, Doc Myers and I would fight many demons together until he passed in 2008.

In all psychological wars, it is never over.

There's just this day, this time, and a hesitant belief in your own ability to change.

It is not an arena where the unsure should go looking for absolutes and there are no permanent victories.

It is about a living change filled with insecurities, the chaos of our own personalities.

The results of my work with Dr. Myers and my debt to him are at the heart of this book.

And this is where he's trying to form long-term relationships.

I wanted something serious.