David Senra
👤 SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
Pressure is how you know everything's working, the doctor said.
Words to live by, doc.
I limp out to the living room of our suite.
My son Jaden and my daughter Jazz see me and scream, Daddy, Daddy.
They jump up and down and want to leap on me.
They stop just before leaping because they know Daddy is delicate these days.
Daddy will shatter if you touch him too hard.
Jaden asks if today is the day.
You're playing?
And then after today, you retire?
Not if I win, son.
If I win tonight, I keep playing.
He hopes Daddy loses, hopes Daddy experiences the disappointment that surpasses all others.
He doesn't understand.
And how will I ever be able to explain it to him?
The pain of losing.
The pain of playing.
It has taken me nearly 30 years to understand it myself, to solve the calculus of my own psyche.