David Senra

They stare and then dutifully write my insane prediction in their notebooks.

And so even though he's in the process of rebuilding himself, rebuilding his life, he still has this these these times of insane fear and doubt.

He's talking to JP, which I mentioned earlier is one of his most important confidants and friends throughout this entire story.

One night, I tell JP that I feel remarkable confidence in my game and new purpose for being on the court.

So how come I still feel fear?

Doesn't the fear ever go away?

And JP says, fear is your fire, Andre.

I wouldn't want to see you if it ever completely went out.

And I don't think that fear ever goes away.

I remember reading Rick Rubin's book like two weeks ago, and he was talking about one of the most famous musicians that he was working with.

Somebody that's been

touring the world and delighting tens of thousands of fans for decades and even decades into his career.

He was terrified and filled with nerves every night before he stepped on the stage.

And he did it anyways.

JP also gives some great advice, and I think this is a great metaphor to really monitor your thoughts.

JP tells me that for the last few years, my mind has been a swamp, stagnant, fetid, seeping in every direction.

Now it's time for my mind to be a river, raging, channeled, and therefore pure.

And so now in 1999, he fights his way all the way back.

He's in the final of the French Open.

He's clawed his way back all the way from out of the top 100.