Davina McCall

And it was talking about smiling through a thousand tears.

And I'll never forget just sitting there and just bawling my eyes out because... That was your life.

It was my life.

Yeah, it was with maybe not my immediate family, but extended family, but very, very close to us and living in the farmhouse.

We were very cut off from the rest of the world.

So you were vulnerable to that.

I was so vulnerable and I was just in the room down the hallway and, you know, I finally built the confidence to talk about it and I just wasn't believed.

I was sort of shushed.

I did, yeah.

And yeah, they didn't believe me.

And that was a consistent thing because it wasn't the only time or the only person.

This was a consistent thing that kind of kept happening through time.

not immediate family, but extended family that felt like the people that I could trust.

And as soon as I felt like I could trust them, they're falling in love with me at eight years old and trying to kiss me and trying to do things.

And I just didn't know how to take it.

And even through my honesty, I just don't know if my parents had the ability to

want to have to deal with that or protect me in the way I felt like I needed somebody to.

I think they're very hurt in their own selves and their own upbringing.

I can now look back in hindsight and at least kind of come to terms with that because I think finding a level of acceptance and making it okay and forgiveness is needed to rise above and not feel like a victim, which is

such a huge turning point in anybody's life that's experienced anything.