Deb Proctor

I just had so much pain and confusion. I got on my knees. I leaned into a chair and I just kept praying and asking for help. And just, if you can get me on my feet, I will go forward. I will keep my sobriety. I promise, I promise. I made a commitment to live life, to help others, to be the best person I can, to be loving, kind.

I just had so much pain and confusion. I got on my knees. I leaned into a chair and I just kept praying and asking for help. And just, if you can get me on my feet, I will go forward. I will keep my sobriety. I promise, I promise. I made a commitment to live life, to help others, to be the best person I can, to be loving, kind.

I just had so much pain and confusion. I got on my knees. I leaned into a chair and I just kept praying and asking for help. And just, if you can get me on my feet, I will go forward. I will keep my sobriety. I promise, I promise. I made a commitment to live life, to help others, to be the best person I can, to be loving, kind.

I mean, those were the things I'd always been, but I was not going to let this make me harsh and hateful.

I mean, those were the things I'd always been, but I was not going to let this make me harsh and hateful.

I mean, those were the things I'd always been, but I was not going to let this make me harsh and hateful.

You know, we often talk of spiritual awakenings. I feel like I've had a few in my life, but that was profound. Profound. And when I stood up, you know, I was still crying, but I wasn't suffering as much. I didn't feel the pain as deep at the betrayal or shock. And I knew that when I stood up that it was something greater than me. It said, get up. You got work to do.

You know, we often talk of spiritual awakenings. I feel like I've had a few in my life, but that was profound. Profound. And when I stood up, you know, I was still crying, but I wasn't suffering as much. I didn't feel the pain as deep at the betrayal or shock. And I knew that when I stood up that it was something greater than me. It said, get up. You got work to do.

You know, we often talk of spiritual awakenings. I feel like I've had a few in my life, but that was profound. Profound. And when I stood up, you know, I was still crying, but I wasn't suffering as much. I didn't feel the pain as deep at the betrayal or shock. And I knew that when I stood up that it was something greater than me. It said, get up. You got work to do.

I made a commitment to do that in that moment, and I've never turned back, and I've never tried to rewrite the story. And I don't want to live in bitterness. I still wanted to be open-hearted and help others. And that's what set the tone for the years to where we are today. She's now 11 years sober. I maintain sobriety.

I made a commitment to do that in that moment, and I've never turned back, and I've never tried to rewrite the story. And I don't want to live in bitterness. I still wanted to be open-hearted and help others. And that's what set the tone for the years to where we are today. She's now 11 years sober. I maintain sobriety.

I made a commitment to do that in that moment, and I've never turned back, and I've never tried to rewrite the story. And I don't want to live in bitterness. I still wanted to be open-hearted and help others. And that's what set the tone for the years to where we are today. She's now 11 years sober. I maintain sobriety.

I was dedicated to my meetings and I was dedicated to the spiritual journey and dealing with my loss and grief and shock.

I was dedicated to my meetings and I was dedicated to the spiritual journey and dealing with my loss and grief and shock.

I was dedicated to my meetings and I was dedicated to the spiritual journey and dealing with my loss and grief and shock.

I would say you've still got to stay working on your emotional health because it's a tough service. What I know for sure is that we can't help others adequately or appropriately if we haven't began our own work to heal. I feel like I'm more effective in these last years because of all the work I've done.

I would say you've still got to stay working on your emotional health because it's a tough service. What I know for sure is that we can't help others adequately or appropriately if we haven't began our own work to heal. I feel like I'm more effective in these last years because of all the work I've done.

I would say you've still got to stay working on your emotional health because it's a tough service. What I know for sure is that we can't help others adequately or appropriately if we haven't began our own work to heal. I feel like I'm more effective in these last years because of all the work I've done.

It was a sense of relief. But also all the emotions that flood into that moment, you just have to hold them.

It was a sense of relief. But also all the emotions that flood into that moment, you just have to hold them.