Derek Jones

I came up to Fort Worth.

A hundred percent.

Yeah.

It definitely makes you stop and

When everything came out, it made me and once I got clear headed and understanding of everything and I was like, where was my judgment at?

You know, but it also makes you stop and look at it.

Like you said, it's like it's hard to remember how I thought back then.

Yeah, because I'm leaps and bounds ahead of where I was even back then.

And so it's yeah, it's hard to think about it, like to the point of remembering exactly what were your thoughts, because myself nowadays, I'd have been like, what in the world?

Something's off here.

But at the same time, going through this has also made me.

me hide my awareness like little things throw you know catch red flag red flag you know and it's it's made me harder to trust people yeah um because it makes you like I said it makes you question your judgment but it also it's like you you thought you know yourself better than that

But now you're like now that you've come out on the other side, you're like before I'd have been just like, oh, yeah, no problem.

Like, I believe you now.

I'm like, yeah, yeah.

And then I'm going to I'm going to take some time and evaluate it and think about it.

I had one from a previous marriage.

And I was just in that place in life where.

then i didn't know that i was in a depression and everything and i i really didn't learn how deep of a depression i was in until actually all this came out i didn't realize and how far i had had disassociated myself with family and everything else and so i i i look back now and you know like i said my judgment wasn't the best and i i could i will put 100 that it wasn't now that i look back but

You know, we started dating and we started hanging out and she would come up and see me and I would go up there and see her.