Dez (Loveartpix)

I was 41 years old. Yeah, I'm 45 now. I mean, even in that, it's opened the key to the door. It's like I lived in a stadium analogy. I've lived in a stadium all my life. The lights have been switched off. I've been struggling around. Now the lights have been switched on. And it's like I can see everything, but there's still tons to go through. I've got to go back through it all.

I was 41 years old. Yeah, I'm 45 now. I mean, even in that, it's opened the key to the door. It's like I lived in a stadium analogy. I've lived in a stadium all my life. The lights have been switched off. I've been struggling around. Now the lights have been switched on. And it's like I can see everything, but there's still tons to go through. I've got to go back through it all.

And I'm trying to understand. And everything does make sense going back through it. But it's just there's tons of it. And it's just... I mean, I don't even feel, I mean, I've spoken to a lot of people who have late diagnosis and they have a lot of anger because they've not been diagnosed for it.

And I'm trying to understand. And everything does make sense going back through it. But it's just there's tons of it. And it's just... I mean, I don't even feel, I mean, I've spoken to a lot of people who have late diagnosis and they have a lot of anger because they've not been diagnosed for it.

And I'm trying to understand. And everything does make sense going back through it. But it's just there's tons of it. And it's just... I mean, I don't even feel, I mean, I've spoken to a lot of people who have late diagnosis and they have a lot of anger because they've not been diagnosed for it.

I don't have any anger towards it because I feel if I would have been diagnosed earlier, it potentially would have been a lot worse. I went through a lot of racism and I think being autistic on top of that with the stigma attached to it, it wouldn't have been good, you know?

I don't have any anger towards it because I feel if I would have been diagnosed earlier, it potentially would have been a lot worse. I went through a lot of racism and I think being autistic on top of that with the stigma attached to it, it wouldn't have been good, you know?

I don't have any anger towards it because I feel if I would have been diagnosed earlier, it potentially would have been a lot worse. I went through a lot of racism and I think being autistic on top of that with the stigma attached to it, it wouldn't have been good, you know?

So I think at this moment in my life, it's the right time for me to process it and have a lot more understanding of different things in life, you know? So I think it's the right time.

So I think at this moment in my life, it's the right time for me to process it and have a lot more understanding of different things in life, you know? So I think it's the right time.

So I think at this moment in my life, it's the right time for me to process it and have a lot more understanding of different things in life, you know? So I think it's the right time.

Yeah, so... I was diagnosed bipolar in my early 20s before. I call it the bipolar boom, where everybody was diagnosed with bipolar, but I got diagnosed just before that, coming into that. I'd never heard of bipolar, and I was having a lot of issues going out, and I was having meltdowns, which I now understand to be meltdowns and sensory overloads.

Yeah, so... I was diagnosed bipolar in my early 20s before. I call it the bipolar boom, where everybody was diagnosed with bipolar, but I got diagnosed just before that, coming into that. I'd never heard of bipolar, and I was having a lot of issues going out, and I was having meltdowns, which I now understand to be meltdowns and sensory overloads.

Yeah, so... I was diagnosed bipolar in my early 20s before. I call it the bipolar boom, where everybody was diagnosed with bipolar, but I got diagnosed just before that, coming into that. I'd never heard of bipolar, and I was having a lot of issues going out, and I was having meltdowns, which I now understand to be meltdowns and sensory overloads.

don't know what was going on um and then so for 20 years 20 odd years i was um under the mental health system given every medication you can take even um one of the psychiatrists i've seen and said look there's you've had every every combination you can have what else do you want us to do for you and i was like that's not what you want to hear you know so um then

don't know what was going on um and then so for 20 years 20 odd years i was um under the mental health system given every medication you can take even um one of the psychiatrists i've seen and said look there's you've had every every combination you can have what else do you want us to do for you and i was like that's not what you want to hear you know so um then

don't know what was going on um and then so for 20 years 20 odd years i was um under the mental health system given every medication you can take even um one of the psychiatrists i've seen and said look there's you've had every every combination you can have what else do you want us to do for you and i was like that's not what you want to hear you know so um then

My partner got pregnant and it was like, I need to get my, I need to have a better understanding of who I am now. And I need to take control is to be a better father, you know, to be a good father when my son's born. Well, when my child born, I didn't know it was going to be a son. So yeah, I had to fight for that.

My partner got pregnant and it was like, I need to get my, I need to have a better understanding of who I am now. And I need to take control is to be a better father, you know, to be a good father when my son's born. Well, when my child born, I didn't know it was going to be a son. So yeah, I had to fight for that.

My partner got pregnant and it was like, I need to get my, I need to have a better understanding of who I am now. And I need to take control is to be a better father, you know, to be a good father when my son's born. Well, when my child born, I didn't know it was going to be a son. So yeah, I had to fight for that.