Dez (Loveartpix)

so i you know i had the therapy for that as well saying that when i when i did have the therapy for that in the service i said initially on the under the nhs i said um can i speak to somebody who has an understanding of neurodivergent conditions so i said yeah and then they came in and then when when we actually went through the therapy they said that they couldn't kind of really finish it because their initial training is on a neurotypical model so again when it when we came down to it at the end it was like the risk wasn't worth the root with the reward

they could have obviously you're visiting a lot of memories and if and that could trigger more i mean i struggle with suicide ideation if there's something like that then that's not they're they're not equipped to deal with that so it wasn't yeah it wasn't worth going into that so they referred me back to my doctor and said do not re-refer and that now i've spoke to my doctor the other week even and she said unfortunately at this moment in time there isn't any services out there that can help because and which i do understand because being having late diagnosis there's there's not much research into it it's fairly new in terms of what they understand of it so

they could have obviously you're visiting a lot of memories and if and that could trigger more i mean i struggle with suicide ideation if there's something like that then that's not they're they're not equipped to deal with that so it wasn't yeah it wasn't worth going into that so they referred me back to my doctor and said do not re-refer and that now i've spoke to my doctor the other week even and she said unfortunately at this moment in time there isn't any services out there that can help because and which i do understand because being having late diagnosis there's there's not much research into it it's fairly new in terms of what they understand of it so

they could have obviously you're visiting a lot of memories and if and that could trigger more i mean i struggle with suicide ideation if there's something like that then that's not they're they're not equipped to deal with that so it wasn't yeah it wasn't worth going into that so they referred me back to my doctor and said do not re-refer and that now i've spoke to my doctor the other week even and she said unfortunately at this moment in time there isn't any services out there that can help because and which i do understand because being having late diagnosis there's there's not much research into it it's fairly new in terms of what they understand of it so

Yeah, I think we're at that kind of stage now where there is research going to take a long time before it gets really kicks in.

Yeah, I think we're at that kind of stage now where there is research going to take a long time before it gets really kicks in.

Yeah, I think we're at that kind of stage now where there is research going to take a long time before it gets really kicks in.

so yeah so um when i was going through the the the process i'm a night person i think a lot of um no divergent people are as well you know my brain comes alive at night and so i've always been kind of creative so i started to create artwork on an app called pixar when i'm in bed at night that's what i do i'm up all night so it's just it gives me a way of channeling my focus on whatever

so yeah so um when i was going through the the the process i'm a night person i think a lot of um no divergent people are as well you know my brain comes alive at night and so i've always been kind of creative so i started to create artwork on an app called pixar when i'm in bed at night that's what i do i'm up all night so it's just it gives me a way of channeling my focus on whatever

so yeah so um when i was going through the the the process i'm a night person i think a lot of um no divergent people are as well you know my brain comes alive at night and so i've always been kind of creative so i started to create artwork on an app called pixar when i'm in bed at night that's what i do i'm up all night so it's just it gives me a way of channeling my focus on whatever

rather than going down rabbit holes, what people do, you know, it was, it was something that I could really focus. I wouldn't call it, I don't call it therapy, art therapy. I call it art focus because when I'm creating, I hold my breath sometimes, but you know, when I created a piece of artwork, it's like I'm burnt out after it, mentally burnt out because I put so much focus on it. So, um,

rather than going down rabbit holes, what people do, you know, it was, it was something that I could really focus. I wouldn't call it, I don't call it therapy, art therapy. I call it art focus because when I'm creating, I hold my breath sometimes, but you know, when I created a piece of artwork, it's like I'm burnt out after it, mentally burnt out because I put so much focus on it. So, um,

rather than going down rabbit holes, what people do, you know, it was, it was something that I could really focus. I wouldn't call it, I don't call it therapy, art therapy. I call it art focus because when I'm creating, I hold my breath sometimes, but you know, when I created a piece of artwork, it's like I'm burnt out after it, mentally burnt out because I put so much focus on it. So, um,

Yeah, I've created artwork. That was kind of what I use as my life tool now. That helps me a lot. But also as well, just going through my life thinking that I was damaged, which I still think that the trauma is a massive element to that. But just to know that there's nothing wrong with me, it's my neurotype, it's my condition. That's been the big item on that.

Yeah, I've created artwork. That was kind of what I use as my life tool now. That helps me a lot. But also as well, just going through my life thinking that I was damaged, which I still think that the trauma is a massive element to that. But just to know that there's nothing wrong with me, it's my neurotype, it's my condition. That's been the big item on that.

Yeah, I've created artwork. That was kind of what I use as my life tool now. That helps me a lot. But also as well, just going through my life thinking that I was damaged, which I still think that the trauma is a massive element to that. But just to know that there's nothing wrong with me, it's my neurotype, it's my condition. That's been the big item on that.

to realise that no, there's not nothing wrong with you, you know, which I've always thought in my life. So now to understand that now and to understand there is a reason for it, I'm not damaged, you know, obviously, I mean, on top of that, there is damage, like I said, the trauma side of things. Yeah, that's made

to realise that no, there's not nothing wrong with you, you know, which I've always thought in my life. So now to understand that now and to understand there is a reason for it, I'm not damaged, you know, obviously, I mean, on top of that, there is damage, like I said, the trauma side of things. Yeah, that's made

to realise that no, there's not nothing wrong with you, you know, which I've always thought in my life. So now to understand that now and to understand there is a reason for it, I'm not damaged, you know, obviously, I mean, on top of that, there is damage, like I said, the trauma side of things. Yeah, that's made

difference one of the things when i was diagnosed bipolar when i was seeing the psychiatrist they were saying to me what triggers it what trigger i'm like well i can't pinpoint anything something could just happen and that's it and it doesn't there's no kind of pattern to it but when i look at it now there is a pattern it's just any any change in this in the slightest pattern you know um i could walk into a room and there'd be something out of place and that would completely throw me you know it can be that severe depending on how my moods are