Diana Nyad

And go back and tell my 21-year-old self to shape up and to be more this or that and get over that sexual abuse bullshit and all that stuff.

But I can't.

I can only live my life as I go along.

Just as if I stand up in front of a group of 21-year-olds as opposed to usually it's middle-aged people I'm speaking to.

But I'm not going to say to them, listen, you guys, you have no idea how fast this life is going to go by.

I want to scare you into thinking, you know, you're going to snap your fingers and you're going to be my age.

They don't believe that.

They're not going to buy into that.

They're not ready for that kind of vision and that kind of maturity.

So I can't talk to my 21-year-old self.

I can't, and I rail against the question.

You know what I mean?

Wow, I never thought I'd talk about this.

But I lost my marriage.

I was with just the light of my life for 10 years.

And...

She said, I'm asking you not to go have this affair.

I'm asking you to say yes to me, to look me in the eyes and say, yes, Nina, it's you, and I will not go.

I'm going to do what you're asking me to do, and I was...

you know, silly and young.