Douglas Taurel

I think it's subconscious. You know, I thought about that at times, but like, if there's a lot of something going on, I just, I just go now in my heart, I can literally feel my heart calm down. And I think a lot of it is hiding when my dad was screaming a lot, you know, and I would, a mechanism of trying to calm myself down and I would hold my little sister as well.

I think it's subconscious. You know, I thought about that at times, but like, if there's a lot of something going on, I just, I just go now in my heart, I can literally feel my heart calm down. And I think a lot of it is hiding when my dad was screaming a lot, you know, and I would, a mechanism of trying to calm myself down and I would hold my little sister as well.

I think it's subconscious. You know, I thought about that at times, but like, if there's a lot of something going on, I just, I just go now in my heart, I can literally feel my heart calm down. And I think a lot of it is hiding when my dad was screaming a lot, you know, and I would, a mechanism of trying to calm myself down and I would hold my little sister as well.

I think consciously I would just come out of it. It's kind of weird. It's like you feel it and you see it, but you're controlling it. It's kind of like you're out of mind in a way. Almost like a third person view? Yeah, you become like kind of third person view. Like you can feel yourself getting numb. You know you're in a dangerous situation. I mean, it would happen on the subway sometimes.

I think consciously I would just come out of it. It's kind of weird. It's like you feel it and you see it, but you're controlling it. It's kind of like you're out of mind in a way. Almost like a third person view? Yeah, you become like kind of third person view. Like you can feel yourself getting numb. You know you're in a dangerous situation. I mean, it would happen on the subway sometimes.

I think consciously I would just come out of it. It's kind of weird. It's like you feel it and you see it, but you're controlling it. It's kind of like you're out of mind in a way. Almost like a third person view? Yeah, you become like kind of third person view. Like you can feel yourself getting numb. You know you're in a dangerous situation. I mean, it would happen on the subway sometimes.

Like crazy shit would happen on the subway. And I would just go, I would feel myself go numb. And I just start, I can notice my surroundings really well. And then I started thinking about an exit of some kind, like, what am I going to do? What should I do? Yeah. And that's it's just something that I think I learned through trauma, you know? Yeah. And so I remember 9-11 being pretty peaceful.

Like crazy shit would happen on the subway. And I would just go, I would feel myself go numb. And I just start, I can notice my surroundings really well. And then I started thinking about an exit of some kind, like, what am I going to do? What should I do? Yeah. And that's it's just something that I think I learned through trauma, you know? Yeah. And so I remember 9-11 being pretty peaceful.

Like crazy shit would happen on the subway. And I would just go, I would feel myself go numb. And I just start, I can notice my surroundings really well. And then I started thinking about an exit of some kind, like, what am I going to do? What should I do? Yeah. And that's it's just something that I think I learned through trauma, you know? Yeah. And so I remember 9-11 being pretty peaceful.

You know, I knew things weren't right. Things were crazy. A lot of the girls were crying. They were freaking out. And what was really weird, I remember 9-11 is because we were in a gym. So there were treadmills and all the treadmills had TV. So you could see what was happening on 9-11 on the TV, but you were right next to it.

You know, I knew things weren't right. Things were crazy. A lot of the girls were crying. They were freaking out. And what was really weird, I remember 9-11 is because we were in a gym. So there were treadmills and all the treadmills had TV. So you could see what was happening on 9-11 on the TV, but you were right next to it.

You know, I knew things weren't right. Things were crazy. A lot of the girls were crying. They were freaking out. And what was really weird, I remember 9-11 is because we were in a gym. So there were treadmills and all the treadmills had TV. So you could see what was happening on 9-11 on the TV, but you were right next to it.

So it'd be kind of like us watching TV and some disaster going on over there. And you can see it on the horizon. Yeah. And then when you'd walk out the front doors, you're like, shit, that's right here. And so I would go in and out, in and out from the gym. It was a big glass building. It was a beautiful building. And I remember thinking, man, I wonder what's going to happen. So I walked outside.

So it'd be kind of like us watching TV and some disaster going on over there. And you can see it on the horizon. Yeah. And then when you'd walk out the front doors, you're like, shit, that's right here. And so I would go in and out, in and out from the gym. It was a big glass building. It was a beautiful building. And I remember thinking, man, I wonder what's going to happen. So I walked outside.

So it'd be kind of like us watching TV and some disaster going on over there. And you can see it on the horizon. Yeah. And then when you'd walk out the front doors, you're like, shit, that's right here. And so I would go in and out, in and out from the gym. It was a big glass building. It was a beautiful building. And I remember thinking, man, I wonder what's going to happen. So I walked outside.

You couldn't call anybody. I couldn't call my girlfriend. All the lines were locked up. Satellites were jammed. And I remember just standing outside and looking at the buildings and thinking what was going on.

You couldn't call anybody. I couldn't call my girlfriend. All the lines were locked up. Satellites were jammed. And I remember just standing outside and looking at the buildings and thinking what was going on.

You couldn't call anybody. I couldn't call my girlfriend. All the lines were locked up. Satellites were jammed. And I remember just standing outside and looking at the buildings and thinking what was going on.

Oh, I mean phone lines were jammed. But they were satellites. A tower. Sorry, the tower. Yeah, the tower. Yeah. The towers.

Oh, I mean phone lines were jammed. But they were satellites. A tower. Sorry, the tower. Yeah, the tower. Yeah. The towers.