Dr. Brian Pennie

I have a great relationship with anxiety.

I only got a blood test three days ago and there I was looking at it, going into the thing, fascinated by the whole process.

So it was purely psychological, you know.

So it took me four years to become chronically addicted, everyday use.

But I was mentally addicted from the very first day.

Now some people will be in so much pain, I suppose, and have different circumstances that they use it, and it feels so good that they will use it every day from there on.

But they're probably, it takes you a couple of weeks or months to get physically addicted.

But for us, because we're seeing ourselves as a little bit different than not your typical addict,

We'd done it for the first time and it never left me mind.

I was obsessed about doing it again, but I couldn't be an addict.

I'll do it again in the future.

A couple of months later, we'd done it again.

Then it became every two weeks, every week.

And there was seven of us doing heroin for the first time.

Only two of us got strung out, which is interesting.

The two with the greatest emotional challenges got strung out.

And we ended up sort of breaking away from the group.

We were within the group, but we'd still go out partying at weekends, but we'd give each other a wink and we'd go home at about 11, we'd get her and we'd go back to his house and smoke her and whatever it was.

But it turned into Friday, Saturday, Sunday.

Then he says, no, we're party animals.