Dr. Eliza Philby

So I was confronting death and life really sort of very much in a stark way.

And the reason I can't listen to my father's stories is because actually I haven't fully processed his death.

I mean, four years on, you know, and I've had three years of therapy and I've lived other lives.

That's rare for an English person.

What, therapy?

Yeah, congratulations.

Wow.

Thank you.

It's not common.

What's wrong?

It's all very internalised.

It is.

But I can't, I just can't do it.

And it's maybe there will be a time when I listen to those stories with my children.

I think that will be it.

And what's actually, I don't mention in the book, but my dad did it with my grandmother.

So she died in 1986 and he actually filmed her talking about her life and telling stories.

And we sat around actually about four years before my father actually died, watching my grandmother tell her life story.

Wow.

And, you know, it's just so bizarre to kind of like, and there was three generations sat there listening to my, their, you know, the grandmother, the matriarch of the family,