Dr. Forbes Riley

And I went Instagram live every single day.

So my audience could see the mornings where I was crying at 5 a.m.

going, this totally sucks.

Why did I do this?

And then the days where I'm like, I'm playing this theme song going, I rock, I'm closing the gym.

I'm a champion.

and there was a roller coaster and then i don't know if you can relate to this and maybe i'm saying this because your audience needs to hear this but on day 67 something wicked happened you know as an actress who'd fought my weight my whole life see when i was coming up and i was on a soap opera i was on as the world turns and i'm standing between meg ryan and julianne moore they're both on my show and they're both twiggy now here's a funny thing does this look that what is that that's a mouse right that's a mouse yeah does the mouse look fat

It does when you stick it next to a pen.

And I was the mouse.

I was 20 pounds overweight.

I was normal.

By today's standards, I was just fine.

But this made me look really... And everybody... I was on Broadway.

I got sent to Overeaters Anonymous.

So I was fixated on this whole body image.

And it destroyed me.

And I could...

mean john avilson got on the phone with me the director from rocky academy award-winning director was doing this new movie called neighbors with john belushi and dan ackroyd and i was slated to play the lead female and he called me personally he said look they we all love you but the brass the money people tell me you need to lose 15 pounds

and i think i hung up and ate a donut i was very i would always yo-yo down what kind of donut chocolate on top don't like the cream ones though oh my god my dad liked the cream so i would get to that weight and i would always sabotage myself like a ritual it was disgusting i'm like i don't i can't figure it out

Well, day 67 of my weight loss challenge, I'm sitting in the gym and I see a bridge flying at my face and I'm like, I'm having visions, I'm like crying hysterically.