Dr. J. Budziszewski

We're not saying that these atheists are wrong because having bad fathers predisposed them to this.

But it is an interesting sociological... But it is interesting that having bad fathers does predispose people to this.

They miss the experience of fatherhood.

They want it.

They need it.

And...

not having had it, find it difficult to believe in God the Father or resent him so much that they have to disbelieve in him in order to get back at him.

Did he say that?

I don't know.

He might have.

The only description of his atheist days that I remember is where he said that the thought of God was odious to him.

It felt like it squeezed all the air out.

It was suffocating.

Okay.

Even in his novel, Paralandra.

Yep.

Um, the protagonist is, is a devout, seriously devout Christian.

But at one point when the, when the presence of God becomes overwhelmingly powerful, uh, obvious to him, uh, early on in the novel, he felt, feels almost like there is no air.

And, uh, and he, the only solution, the only way he's able to breathe again is to, is to simply submit to this.

Yeah.