Dr. Katriona O'Sullivan

And I learned to count food properly.

I didn't learn about nutrition and health and how to love myself and my body.

It also took away exercise.

So it taught me that I should count all my steps.

Like we all say this to each other, even now, get your steps in, get your steps in.

We could make a t-shirt saying, get your steps in, you know, but I, as somebody who experienced trauma, who had poverty, the idea of a destination and after picture was so strong to me.

If I could just get there and

And it's that for lots of women.

But in my case, it was pathological.

And because I was uneducated and I didn't have criticality, the things that I was willing to do to shrink my body became really toxic to the point where I had a gastric band.

I was getting sick every day and I was hiding this from the world, pretending that I was just succeeding because I was smaller, when realistically I was mentally unwell and I felt dreadful every single day.

Where are you with that now?

You know where I am now.

So the book talks about it.

It talks about how to get out of that.

Now, I still live in this world.

I still turn on my social media and see a before and after picture.

I see smooth faces of 50 year old women and I'm not smooth face.

So I've not escaped the fat algorithm or the beauty standard.

So I open and I still have questions about my body size, my face, everything else.