Dr. Nicole LePera

Really remember that.

And so what I'd come to understand, right, is that my inability to recall was actually an example of everything we've been talking about today, right?

When I lacked the safety and security in childhood, the most protective thing for my body to do was to pay less attention to me and what's happening around me, right, to disconnect or to dissociate my awareness, right?

We actually now have a ton of research that shows the impact of cortisol, one of our main stress hormones, how much, again, our brain, while I'm going to localize memory to one system, the hippocampus, there's a lot of different systems involved in the way our brain works.

But so to speak, cortisol very much impacts our hippocampus, the ability to kind of hold and recall memory.

Right.

So now I have a different story in mind.

Right.

Which is the way the reason I lack the story was because there was so much cortisol, not only from the moment I was born into the environment, but I've come to realize and this goes for for listeners.

The right from if we understand if we have access to information or not about the details, if we have a sense of how stress our mother was right when we were developing in their body.

Right.

we can get some sense into how stressed our in utero environment was.

And what I come to, this was actually told to me at my mother's funeral, and it was told in a kind of seemingly joking way.

One of my aunts came up to me and my mom and her were very close, especially when I was born.

My mom was 42 at the time.

And because she had already had two children, my older siblings were 15 and 18 years older than me.

They were not trying to get pregnant.

When my mom started to have pretty consistent morning sickness symptoms,

Very much because there was a lot of health-related issues in my family with my older sister in particular.

So there was a lot of when something happened, right?