Dr. Rhonda Barofsky

He showed up about, well, 45 minutes early. And, and then the, so then the first night when we were trying to drive, it was time to drive home. And one of the things on my anxiety hierarchy was kind of funny, but it was kind of true as I was like, I said, I'm getting ready to drive home and And I'm too afraid to drive home and neither Warner nor Lee will drive home for me. And I hate them.

He showed up about, well, 45 minutes early. And, and then the, so then the first night when we were trying to drive, it was time to drive home. And one of the things on my anxiety hierarchy was kind of funny, but it was kind of true as I was like, I said, I'm getting ready to drive home and And I'm too afraid to drive home and neither Warner nor Lee will drive home for me. And I hate them.

And, and so that's what that happened Thursday, Thursday. Yeah. Yeah, Thursday, it was foggy. It was really dark. I was tired. And I sat in the driver's seat and I thought, God, Werner and Lee, they're going to judge me. They're going to say I am really dumb and I'm an ass. We judge you.

And, and so that's what that happened Thursday, Thursday. Yeah. Yeah, Thursday, it was foggy. It was really dark. I was tired. And I sat in the driver's seat and I thought, God, Werner and Lee, they're going to judge me. They're going to say I am really dumb and I'm an ass. We judge you.

But I couldn't, I couldn't drive home. And I just sat there in the car and, and, and I, I think I started crying a little and said, are you guys going to judge me if I can't, if I don't drive home? And they both were super loving and like, we're not going to judge you. And it is scary and it's dark and Werner volunteered to drive home.

But I couldn't, I couldn't drive home. And I just sat there in the car and, and, and I, I think I started crying a little and said, are you guys going to judge me if I can't, if I don't drive home? And they both were super loving and like, we're not going to judge you. And it is scary and it's dark and Werner volunteered to drive home.

When I said I don't want to drive home, I promised that I would drive home on Saturday. Saturday was another late night. So then I had time to prepare myself. So every day I did drive there without any problem.

When I said I don't want to drive home, I promised that I would drive home on Saturday. Saturday was another late night. So then I had time to prepare myself. So every day I did drive there without any problem.

easier every day yes driving there and um so by the time sunday came along it wasn't a problem whatsoever to drive and one of the things that happened was i don't normally drive the speed limit the speed limit 65 and i said to warner i'm never going over 60 i don't care I'm going to be driving, but I'm never going over 60. And Warner's like, well, can you drive the speed of traffic?

easier every day yes driving there and um so by the time sunday came along it wasn't a problem whatsoever to drive and one of the things that happened was i don't normally drive the speed limit the speed limit 65 and i said to warner i'm never going over 60 i don't care I'm going to be driving, but I'm never going over 60. And Warner's like, well, can you drive the speed of traffic?

And I said, no, I'm not doing that. I'm never going over. But on Sunday, when it was my fourth time driving there, I was, I did go the speed of traffic. So I did go over. I was, I stubbornly, I went past my, my, my limit and I did drive 65, which Warner, you know.

And I said, no, I'm not doing that. I'm never going over. But on Sunday, when it was my fourth time driving there, I was, I did go the speed of traffic. So I did go over. I was, I stubbornly, I went past my, my, my limit and I did drive 65, which Warner, you know.

So Saturday night, it was still foggy and it was foggy. That's what happens in the Bay Area. I was tired, but I had made this commitment that I was going to drive home. And so I got in the car and I drove home and I was scared. My anxiety was way over 100 part of the time. And, you know, I wear contacts and sometimes I see halos around lights, like car backlights.

So Saturday night, it was still foggy and it was foggy. That's what happens in the Bay Area. I was tired, but I had made this commitment that I was going to drive home. And so I got in the car and I drove home and I was scared. My anxiety was way over 100 part of the time. And, you know, I wear contacts and sometimes I see halos around lights, like car backlights.

And I did see those halo lights around cars in front of me. And I just kept breathing and saying, I don't feel very good, but there's actually nothing I can do now. I, at one point I got, I, I said to Werner, I, I could pull, I, I could, I could pull over if you would drive the rest of the way. And Werner said, no, he wouldn't do that. So I just, I was like, okay, I better keep going.

And I did see those halo lights around cars in front of me. And I just kept breathing and saying, I don't feel very good, but there's actually nothing I can do now. I, at one point I got, I, I said to Werner, I, I could pull, I, I could, I could pull over if you would drive the rest of the way. And Werner said, no, he wouldn't do that. So I just, I was like, okay, I better keep going.

So I, that I was not driving the speed of traffic. I drove probably slower. I definitely drove slower. Um, But I did it. And then I did drive over the 580 24 overpass and, um, So and then we made it home and I didn't kill anyone. I didn't kill myself. I didn't have a heart attack. I didn't die. I didn't fall off the side of the bridge. I didn't fly off the overpass. None of my fears came true.

So I, that I was not driving the speed of traffic. I drove probably slower. I definitely drove slower. Um, But I did it. And then I did drive over the 580 24 overpass and, um, So and then we made it home and I didn't kill anyone. I didn't kill myself. I didn't have a heart attack. I didn't die. I didn't fall off the side of the bridge. I didn't fly off the overpass. None of my fears came true.

And I was I made a joke and said, oh, we could have a margarita as soon as we get home. But we didn't have a margarita. We just stayed up a little bit laughing and enjoying the the work from the intensive and talking about what we all did and what was so awesome about the intensive. And two were pretty tired and then went to bed.

And I was I made a joke and said, oh, we could have a margarita as soon as we get home. But we didn't have a margarita. We just stayed up a little bit laughing and enjoying the the work from the intensive and talking about what we all did and what was so awesome about the intensive. And two were pretty tired and then went to bed.