Dr. Stephen Meyer

And I didn't know how to explain it any better or worse than that.

And I could go on, you know, spinning, spinning, spinning.

And one day I had this thought.

maybe this is what it means to be insane.

And then I had a panic, I had a panic attack, I had a surge, because I didn't see anyone at school asking these kinds of questions and nobody was talking about this.

And so then I had about just an extended period of like six months, still in the leg cast, can't do anything, overactive mind,

And it's like this dark thought.

I get afraid of the thoughts I'm having because it might mean that I'm insane.

And then I get afraid of the thoughts that I'm insane.

And then it's a fear of a fear of a fear.

And it's just a downward maelstrom.

And it's just utter darkness.

And I remember staring at some pattern on my windowsill thinking –

My life is over.

Just nothing makes sense.

And so I have a happy-go-lucky brother who's my alter ego.

I'm a philosopher.

He's an entrepreneur.

And he kind of started to pull me out of this.

His school started up again in the fall.