Dr. Taylor Cummings

a study of self because that is what it was about for me, knowledge of self.

And I also used intuitive inquiry as one of my methods.

So the methods of my dissertation was a black girl, autoethnography and intuitive inquiry.

And I added intuitive inquiry because I was like, I have to account for the spiritual nature of what I'm doing.

this was not, it was intentional in terms of like, it's important to me and this is a spiritual work, but it wasn't intentional in terms of like, I sat and I wrote this down, you know, and I said, I'm going to do this.

I never said, I'm going to go get a PhD.

I want to be a doctor when I'm older.

I never said none of that.

I didn't know what I wanted to do.

I didn't know who I wanted to be, but I knew I wanted to help people.

And so my life just gradually allowed me to be in the space that I'm in and I'm watching it unfold sort of like everybody else, you know, but

I'm in control, understanding though that our control isn't letting go.

And like you said earlier, the harder you try to hold on to something, it slips away.

And so understanding what that is, because you are communicating to the universe fear.

You are communicating to the universe, I don't have this and I'm scared that I don't have this.

that's what you're demonstrating.

But if you know that you know that you know, there's a calmness about that.

And so being able to tap into that, I think was really important.

And just to decolonize research, decolonize the mind, what it means to really free your mind, what it really means to break free from the matrix.

Because oftentimes the moment you talk about the matrix, it's like, oh, you woo, woo, woo, you into this, you into that, but not like this is reality.