Ed Mylett

And that's what I told myself.

And I just become a training machine every day after school.

I would go to the playground, go to the gym, go play basketball and train until my mom would have to call me in at like nine o'clock and say, you got to come home.

I think it was one of the triggers of just like always feeling like I was abused, left behind, not good enough.

It was just one of those triggers.

It's interesting, your face changed even when you just said that.

It's interesting.

It's just like, it's one of those moments that I can remember.

There was many moments like that, but that was a moment where I was like, okay.

I just never want to feel this again.

And so I put, yeah.

So I put the athlete mask on and I said, never again am I going to lose.

And I also needed to be right.

You know, for me, like being wrong was losing.

Yeah.

And so I was like, I need to win at all costs.

I need to be right at all costs.

And anytime I lost in a game, I was the worst loser because my self-worth and my value was tied to winning or losing.

And even when I won, sometimes I wouldn't be happy because I would beat myself up about how I could have been better.

So I couldn't appreciate the journey.