Elizabeth Smart

I don't trust everyone else, the people that I don't know.

And it made me crazy as like a little kid.

And I like as an adult now, I'm like, no, I'm like that.

My mom had it right.

Like, why didn't I just trust her?

It makes me drives me wild now.

Yeah.

Oh, so you were saying something that actually brought something up for me.

So you were talking about how, like, how quickly in that first day, you're kind of like, it's almost like how fastly you're moving through these, like, I don't even know if it's like the grieving process of, you know, in day one, you went from my parents aren't going to want me to like, yes, they will love me unconditionally, whatever that means.

In this first day, did you think that...

This was something that was just going to happen today and then you would go?

Like, did he just want you for this one ceremony in this marriage?

Or did you know from, like, the second he took you and is walking you through the mountains or when you got there that he was keeping you?

I mean, at one point he told me that he was holding me hostage.

So I...

I didn't think he was going to keep me forever.

But then when we got into the camp, when he did this marriage ceremony, when he chained me up, when I started looking around the camp and seeing how well-stocked it was, when after he had raped me, I honestly am not sure if I fell asleep or I passed out, but one of them happened.

And then when I woke up again and he kind of started telling me some of...

Almost like the rules of captivity.

One of them was, you know, you're allowed to grieve today for your family.