Elizabeth Smart

And watch it.

That's why I go back and forth is because sometimes I'm like, was she in such a bad place herself from her whole life's past experience that she just was so desperate for love, for the feelings of wanting to be special that she allowed this to happen?

It was just easier to believe and go along with than to stand up and be like...

No, you're sick.

This is wrong.

Yes.

She never stood up for me and protected me.

But I not only was supposed to be his wife, but I was supposed to be her handmaiden.

So I was supposed to, like, wait on her.

And so I felt...

that it was better for me to support her claims because then sometimes her jealousy, it would be so much that he would come out with a new revelation to try to placate her.

So he'd come out and he'd say, oh, God has said that your glory is like that of the sun.

And so I can only be with you now.

When the sun is out.

And me, that I was just more like the moon.

And so he could only have me at night.

I never wanted to be raped.

But then if I supported her in that, at least I'd know I'd have a reprieve for 12 hours, 8 hours, however long the sun was out.

And so they would have massive fights, like screaming at each other, which my parents disagreed, but I never saw them scream at each other.

And so watching them just be straight up nasty to each other and scream at each other, I was like, oh my goodness.