Emilie Kiser

Sometimes you have to go to work or leave your child in someone else's care.

And I mean, the only thing you can do is trust.

Trust that you've done everything you can.

They'll do everything they can.

And I mean, that's been a hard thing for me to process because it does feel

especially in those first few months, especially of I'm never, I can't leave his side.

But I also just have realized over time that's not realistic.

It's not healthy.

And I just have to trust that

I'm going to do everything I can.

I do know a mom who went through a very similar situation.

About a month after we lost Trig, I talked to her for the first time and I asked her, are you so scared of water?

Are you so scared of the pool?

And her answer shocked me that she was like, no, because I know that I will do everything I possibly can to make sure that that never happens again.

And that just kind of, again, just rewired me where I was like,

As much as you wish this never happened, as much as you're constantly overthinking everything you could have done differently, that's all you can do is change.

Be better.

Make sure it doesn't happen again.

Same with other parents who they're not even going through it.

They're bystanders or they're hearing about the story.