Emilie Kiser

And...

It feels unbearable.

We did not think we would make it through that.

It's like you constantly are looking back like, how have I done that?

How have we done that?

How are we even here right now?

Time just feels so warped and confusing.

And I feel like that's the hardest thing that you can't explain to someone is just what it's actually like.

You will never know what it's actually like unless you are going through it.

Even you will be surprised by the decisions you make, your thought process, your grief.

I mean, I had even heard similar stories before Trig passed away.

I mean, you always sit there with theoreticals of this is how I would handle it or this is what I would do.

And you would literally never know.

And it's it's crazy thinking back that I ever felt that way or that I ever theoretically felt that way about other people's tragedies, because now I'm like, oh, like.

You literally don't know.

Your brain chemistry literally changes.

When I first got the news that Trigg had fallen in the pool and went to the hospital, I mean, my mind was anywhere.

But what are people going to say?

I wasn't even in a mental space.

I was only focused on him.