Emily Atack

But I always sort of think, where's that come from?

That I've always, I've never had any problem with expressing how I feel.

I make sure everybody knows how I'm feeling.

And I think it's saved me over the years.

I don't bottle anything up.

I wear my heart here, here, here, here, everywhere.

And I hand my heart over on a little fluffy cushion and I go, just take it, take it.

Like, the bin man could say to me, oh, hello, Em, you all right?

And I'll go, oh, I've got the worst period pains ever.

Maybe I've got endometriosis.

Oh, God, I'm just, I'm really, I've got all these pains.

And I just, honestly, I don't stop.

I also am very reactive.

And I think a lot of this comes...

uh from men as well over the years I've really failed to emotionally regulate when it comes to my relationships my sexual relationships who I'm dating what's going on in that situation and it's the kind of men that I've dated I've always dated very problematic troubled men who I'm trying to

fix and it's like oh we're let's be toxic together let's try and fix each other and then if something goes wrong in that relationship I've reacted really massively like I could literally be and obviously not now I'm in a different situation now but back in my dating days I could have been in a

I could be about to do like the biggest job of my life, signing a huge contract.

And if I get a text saying, sorry, babe, got to cancel tonight, I would drop everything.

And I'd go, I've got to go home.

I've got to go home.