Emily Atack

It's helped me understand...

Yeah, how important it is to look after yourself.

And because you have to be this pillar of strength and be this stoic rock to this tiny little person.

And he just loves me unconditionally.

I've never seen anyone look at me the way Barney looks at me.

And it's so special and magic.

And the irony that I've had people...

objectifying me my whole life and looking at me in a certain way whether it's you know the male gaze men looking at me in a certain way or it's people judging me or whatever Barney just looks at me in this pure non-egotistical non-salacious pure beautiful way that I'll never see on anyone ever and I never have seen on anyone ever and it's really amazing healing

Yeah, exactly that.

I know.

And he points at my body and goes, what that?

Babies.

And it's like, oh, I'll tell you when you're older.

But yeah, he's just, he's just a blessing.

I just adore him.

And he just loves his milk and he loves baby bells.

I love what it's been through and I love...

I love my caesarean scar.

I wear it so proudly and I look at my body very differently in that sense.

But if I'm honest, I still have a job to do and I still feel I've got a million insecurities about my weight and I think that will always be there.