Emily McDonald

I was like, I'm fine.

I'm young.

But actually...

When I started to dive into this, you know, work of becoming the version of you that has it and understanding that manifestation isn't necessarily about changing what's outside of you, it's changing what's inside of you so that you can become a match for it and actually create a brain in an internal state that can perceive it.

And so now I was like, okay, well, the version of me, and I kind of always knew this, like the version of me who is at the level that I want to be at, she just didn't have that attachment to nicotine.

Like she just wasn't addicted to vaping.

Like I just knew that the best version of me, the version of me who had it all live my dream come true.

She didn't have that.

And I knew as long as I had this bad habit that, you know, the version of me who has it all doesn't have, then there's a gap between me and the version of me who has it all.

And as long as there's a gap, then there's going to be a gap between that life that I want to live.

And so that was the reason, actually, that I decided, okay, like, I actually do want to quit now.

That was the motivation because I didn't have motivation before.

And so the first thing—and this was something that—

sort of really sat, I sat with when I was in my PhD studying it as well because I was investigating drug treatments to prevent relapse and kind of stopped resonating with that so much because I realized and know intuitively that you have to want to stop.

If you don't want to, then why would you?

Like, there has to be some sort of reason for why you want to.

Otherwise, you know, everyone around you can be telling you it's not good.

But if you don't have some sort of internal desire to, then, I mean, it's, you're,

You're just not going to.

And so that was my desire, right?