Emily Miller

Yeah, I think it's been raised to 45% now. Oh my, wait, wait. If you earn a certain amount, you'll get taxed 45%.

Yeah, I think it's been raised to 45% now. Oh my, wait, wait. If you earn a certain amount, you'll get taxed 45%.

And at the time... Can I just say on the receiving end of that, it was crazy for me because I thought he was like this confident guy, like, you know, didn't care about anything. And then to see him just switch, it was... I've never been with a guy who was so, like, emotional. And I honestly didn't think guys had feelings at the time. So it was crazy for me to...

And at the time... Can I just say on the receiving end of that, it was crazy for me because I thought he was like this confident guy, like, you know, didn't care about anything. And then to see him just switch, it was... I've never been with a guy who was so, like, emotional. And I honestly didn't think guys had feelings at the time. So it was crazy for me to...

I guess it's just like a bunch of hot singles swanning around in bikinis. But you're not allowed to have sex or kiss or they call it heavy petting. I thought that was funny.

I guess it's just like a bunch of hot singles swanning around in bikinis. But you're not allowed to have sex or kiss or they call it heavy petting. I thought that was funny.

honestly i feel like i can handle heart say that i'm very lucky and that i haven't had that like i feel like my followers are so loyal that i've not actually experienced like a crash in anything like a little bit but it's been like a gradual thing so it's like whatever but i have never taken anything like too seriously like i am very well aware that i have a sell-by date so i'm always expecting to just you know one day be irrelevant and i'm absolutely fine with that that's not gonna happen

honestly i feel like i can handle heart say that i'm very lucky and that i haven't had that like i feel like my followers are so loyal that i've not actually experienced like a crash in anything like a little bit but it's been like a gradual thing so it's like whatever but i have never taken anything like too seriously like i am very well aware that i have a sell-by date so i'm always expecting to just you know one day be irrelevant and i'm absolutely fine with that that's not gonna happen

Not an American thing.

Not an American thing.

Yeah, and see, if I was a housewife and had the time, I would do that for you.

Yeah, and see, if I was a housewife and had the time, I would do that for you.

In the kitchen.

In the kitchen.

Yeah, we had an animal.

Yeah, we had an animal.

Oh, I've seen that video recently.

Oh, I've seen that video recently.

Yeah. I mean. We got a big fridge. Ours is like. Wow. Who knows as long as you? It's bigger than me, for sure. Way taller than me.

Yeah. I mean. We got a big fridge. Ours is like. Wow. Who knows as long as you? It's bigger than me, for sure. Way taller than me.

I can get inside of it if I need to. So when it gets to 40, 50 degrees, whatever.

I can get inside of it if I need to. So when it gets to 40, 50 degrees, whatever.

I saw tank tops. Today? Yesterday.

I saw tank tops. Today? Yesterday.

Yeah, who's normally in t-shirts?

Yeah, who's normally in t-shirts?

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's why it's clean. Yeah, I feel like.

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's why it's clean. Yeah, I feel like.

Oh, yeah, people aren't allowed to flick their fag butts anymore, are they? It's a cigarette.

Oh, yeah, people aren't allowed to flick their fag butts anymore, are they? It's a cigarette.

I knew that. That means it's a very dry cigarette. No, we call them fags. It's a fag butt. So if a woman had bought a fag, Really? I knew that.

I knew that. That means it's a very dry cigarette. No, we call them fags. It's a fag butt. So if a woman had bought a fag, Really? I knew that.

Absolutely not. Not really. Yeah, it's actually pretty wild in the UK.

Absolutely not. Not really. Yeah, it's actually pretty wild in the UK.

So he'll have food like faggots and sausages, right? Yeah, great. Really nice food, faggots. So faggots, you can go and eat faggots.

So he'll have food like faggots and sausages, right? Yeah, great. Really nice food, faggots. So faggots, you can go and eat faggots.

Yeah, faggots and peas.

Yeah, faggots and peas.

Come on. I was a good girl. I was 16. I waited till I was legal.

Come on. I was a good girl. I was 16. I waited till I was legal.

um so like but then i think but do you say bloody like that's our like yes like oh bloody hell i learned that from reading harry potter as a kid yeah that's hilarious if kids were saying hell like that would be like really that's a no-no for you guys yeah oh nice yeah what are you saying what

um so like but then i think but do you say bloody like that's our like yes like oh bloody hell i learned that from reading harry potter as a kid yeah that's hilarious if kids were saying hell like that would be like really that's a no-no for you guys yeah oh nice yeah what are you saying what

You ever had to do that?

You ever had to do that?

Yeah.

Yeah.

You literally had to do that?

You literally had to do that?

His parents were pretty strict.

His parents were pretty strict.

18.

18.

Oh, you're good. I didn't touch it.

Oh, you're good. I didn't touch it.

It rolled. Sorry, sorry, sorry.

It rolled. Sorry, sorry, sorry.

so that's not legal uh no yeah he's a criminal so we went on the show obviously as these kind of like loose wild singles yeah and you thought it was like a partying show yeah we initially yeah like they hype you up and say listen you go wild like get with whoever so for the first few days like we were under the impression that's what we were doing yeah um so when we finally formed connection like me and you because we as soon as I saw him I was like you're mine like I just knew it and then I was like right I'm ready to do the deed I want to do it with you

so that's not legal uh no yeah he's a criminal so we went on the show obviously as these kind of like loose wild singles yeah and you thought it was like a partying show yeah we initially yeah like they hype you up and say listen you go wild like get with whoever so for the first few days like we were under the impression that's what we were doing yeah um so when we finally formed connection like me and you because we as soon as I saw him I was like you're mine like I just knew it and then I was like right I'm ready to do the deed I want to do it with you

Do a Welsh impression. Do a Welsh impression.

Do a Welsh impression. Do a Welsh impression.

Let me give some context. We was on holiday for his birthday, took him away. And I planned, I was going to tell him, I found out just before we were flying. So I was like, printed off some pictures to like, for his birthday and all, it's pinning pictures around just for about a year together. And so I had this picture of the pregnancy test, I was going to pin it somewhere so he could see it.

Let me give some context. We was on holiday for his birthday, took him away. And I planned, I was going to tell him, I found out just before we were flying. So I was like, printed off some pictures to like, for his birthday and all, it's pinning pictures around just for about a year together. And so I had this picture of the pregnancy test, I was going to pin it somewhere so he could see it.

And then just something in me was like, no, that doesn't seem right. I'm just not going to do it that way. So I took the picture down. I didn't have the picture up. And I kind of just waited and kind of brewed on it. And I let him have his birthday. So I told him the next day at dinner. And we were getting some wine. He was like, oh, let's get a bottle of wine.

And then just something in me was like, no, that doesn't seem right. I'm just not going to do it that way. So I took the picture down. I didn't have the picture up. And I kind of just waited and kind of brewed on it. And I let him have his birthday. So I told him the next day at dinner. And we were getting some wine. He was like, oh, let's get a bottle of wine.

I was like, I don't really fancy a drink. And immediately that rang alarm bells for him because I love a glass of wine. And he was a bit like, OK, are you feeling OK? And I was like, yeah, I just need to go to the toilet. I went to the toilet. I was in the mirror. I was like, right, Emily, why are you so nervous? Just compose yourself. Like, it's fine. I don't know why I was so nervous.

I was like, I don't really fancy a drink. And immediately that rang alarm bells for him because I love a glass of wine. And he was a bit like, OK, are you feeling OK? And I was like, yeah, I just need to go to the toilet. I went to the toilet. I was in the mirror. I was like, right, Emily, why are you so nervous? Just compose yourself. Like, it's fine. I don't know why I was so nervous.

It's just something in me was like, I just knew he was going to like, just, I don't know. Cause it's such a shock, I think. So then I came back out and I just said straight away, I was like, Cam, I'm pregnant. And he went, I think you spat your drink out, didn't you? Yeah. You were like, what?

It's just something in me was like, I just knew he was going to like, just, I don't know. Cause it's such a shock, I think. So then I came back out and I just said straight away, I was like, Cam, I'm pregnant. And he went, I think you spat your drink out, didn't you? Yeah. You were like, what?

With curtains separating you.

With curtains separating you.

i was like i'm pregnant and i think we ended up leaving the restaurant didn't we yeah we did it's like i think more because i was upset because i was so excited to tell him and being pregnant i was so excited being pregnant again because what happened last time that kind of you just sort of shut it all down for me didn't you and i hate i hate that i reacted that way but in a weird way i needed to in order to like be okay with everything and like by the time i really

i was like i'm pregnant and i think we ended up leaving the restaurant didn't we yeah we did it's like i think more because i was upset because i was so excited to tell him and being pregnant i was so excited being pregnant again because what happened last time that kind of you just sort of shut it all down for me didn't you and i hate i hate that i reacted that way but in a weird way i needed to in order to like be okay with everything and like by the time i really

Anyway, that's when Lana, the robot, comes out to ruin all the fun. Basically, the premise of the show is, like, to abstain.

Anyway, that's when Lana, the robot, comes out to ruin all the fun. Basically, the premise of the show is, like, to abstain.

I know, you were excited about the pregnancy as well.

I know, you were excited about the pregnancy as well.

Oh, yeah. I was ready to leave him. I was like, fine, I'm going to do this on my own. Are you kidding? Yeah, yeah, yeah. I was like, I'm doing this on my own. I'm keeping the baby, whether you like it or not.

Oh, yeah. I was ready to leave him. I was like, fine, I'm going to do this on my own. Are you kidding? Yeah, yeah, yeah. I was like, I'm doing this on my own. I'm keeping the baby, whether you like it or not.

Fine, I'll do it on my own.

Fine, I'll do it on my own.

No. It's not really a thing here. No.

No. It's not really a thing here. No.

like we're not even engaged and I want another baby before like I care more about that side than getting married so people always like in our comments oh when are you going to put a ring on it and I'm like what you don't know is obviously you do want like you do want a ring but like Em's actually not that bothered she wants to have kids and be a mum yeah like I know we're in a you know loving committed relationship so like I think because my parents were never married and you come from you know divorced parents a lot of divorces huh a lot of divorces how many yeah it's just a lot of like separation in the families

like we're not even engaged and I want another baby before like I care more about that side than getting married so people always like in our comments oh when are you going to put a ring on it and I'm like what you don't know is obviously you do want like you do want a ring but like Em's actually not that bothered she wants to have kids and be a mum yeah like I know we're in a you know loving committed relationship so like I think because my parents were never married and you come from you know divorced parents a lot of divorces huh a lot of divorces how many yeah it's just a lot of like separation in the families

There's just no rush for us. You know, we're in it for the long run. So it's just kind of like.

There's just no rush for us. You know, we're in it for the long run. So it's just kind of like.

They're together. Oh, they're not together anymore.

They're together. Oh, they're not together anymore.

Yeah. Yeah. But then a lot of them also had separated. So it was never like a taboo. Like, I mean, it wasn't even a question that friends asked. Like, I think they just expected that they were married. So, yeah, I think, you know, it was never really an issue or even spoken about, to be honest.

Yeah. Yeah. But then a lot of them also had separated. So it was never like a taboo. Like, I mean, it wasn't even a question that friends asked. Like, I think they just expected that they were married. So, yeah, I think, you know, it was never really an issue or even spoken about, to be honest.

You say, no. I hear you on the phone. You go, my partner.

You say, no. I hear you on the phone. You go, my partner.

Like, oh, like, shut up.

Like, oh, like, shut up.

Yeah, no.

Yeah, no.

there's two people that you know have to decide you have to be on the same page kind of yeah but no i love being pregnant i had you know no sickness like no aches or pains nothing like my skin was glowing my skin has never been so clear like my hair was thick and shiny and long like I looked great. Honestly. And then I fell apart. I fell apart after. So.

there's two people that you know have to decide you have to be on the same page kind of yeah but no i love being pregnant i had you know no sickness like no aches or pains nothing like my skin was glowing my skin has never been so clear like my hair was thick and shiny and long like I looked great. Honestly. And then I fell apart. I fell apart after. So.

Yeah.

Yeah.

I know. My boobs. Oh my God. I've never had boobs before. And they were like this.

I know. My boobs. Oh my God. I've never had boobs before. And they were like this.

Yeah, he had to go see a doctor because he's blue balls.

Yeah, he had to go see a doctor because he's blue balls.

Christ. Oh yeah. Was that not allowed? No.

Christ. Oh yeah. Was that not allowed? No.

No, no, do you know what?

No, no, do you know what?

I was expecting chips.

I was expecting chips.

Or fat ones. Fat ones, yeah.

Or fat ones. Fat ones, yeah.

If that's a customer service thing, it might be. It's probably because we're always in a rush in this country. So they're probably like thinking that you just know just to get it all out there. You would have discussed what you both wanted before and you would have just gone straight for the order.

If that's a customer service thing, it might be. It's probably because we're always in a rush in this country. So they're probably like thinking that you just know just to get it all out there. You would have discussed what you both wanted before and you would have just gone straight for the order.

You'll do it for the both of us.

You'll do it for the both of us.

Well, no, we split the rent half and half. Yeah, we split the rent. And because in the past I've paid for more stuff, like with living situations, in this house he said that he was going to pay the bills. Now, he hasn't paid any of the bills yet. Now it's come round to it. He's like, oh, Em, you charge your car in the house, so do you not think you should contribute to the bills?

Well, no, we split the rent half and half. Yeah, we split the rent. And because in the past I've paid for more stuff, like with living situations, in this house he said that he was going to pay the bills. Now, he hasn't paid any of the bills yet. Now it's come round to it. He's like, oh, Em, you charge your car in the house, so do you not think you should contribute to the bills?

I'm like, no, actually. The bills come through.

I'm like, no, actually. The bills come through.

He's a criminal.

He's a criminal.

yeah um yeah that's i mean it was awful to be honest i cannot everything that went wrong sorry went wrong yeah um i was bleeding as soon as i went into labor my i don't know what you call it we call like a mucus plug is that what you call it yeah so that went but then the blood just wouldn't stop just like naturally naturally yeah they tried to induce me but i was like no like i really want to do like sort of

yeah um yeah that's i mean it was awful to be honest i cannot everything that went wrong sorry went wrong yeah um i was bleeding as soon as i went into labor my i don't know what you call it we call like a mucus plug is that what you call it yeah so that went but then the blood just wouldn't stop just like naturally naturally yeah they tried to induce me but i was like no like i really want to do like sort of

Do you all think you want to have a big family?

Do you all think you want to have a big family?

like hypnobirthing type vibe. Like I wanted to do it all natural. Like I was in control. Like I'd done so much reading, spoke to so many experts. I was like, I've got this. Um, but yeah, so when my mucus plug went, I just didn't stop bleeding. Was it at 40 weeks or? I was bang on. Yeah. Bang on 40 weeks. Um, it was actually the day before my due date. Okay. Or a couple of days.

like hypnobirthing type vibe. Like I wanted to do it all natural. Like I was in control. Like I'd done so much reading, spoke to so many experts. I was like, I've got this. Um, but yeah, so when my mucus plug went, I just didn't stop bleeding. Was it at 40 weeks or? I was bang on. Yeah. Bang on 40 weeks. Um, it was actually the day before my due date. Okay. Or a couple of days.

It must've been a couple of days.

It must've been a couple of days.

A couple of days. Yeah. Um, so I got taken into hospital. Um, And even though I wasn't dilated enough, because I was bleeding so much, they were like, right, you need to go down into theatre. And I was on a monitor for a... Into what? Theatre.

A couple of days. Yeah. Um, so I got taken into hospital. Um, And even though I wasn't dilated enough, because I was bleeding so much, they were like, right, you need to go down into theatre. And I was on a monitor for a... Into what? Theatre.

It's like... So, like, if I wasn't at risk, you'd be, like, in a communal area with other pregnant women in labour. You're labouring with other women here? Yeah.

It's like... So, like, if I wasn't at risk, you'd be, like, in a communal area with other pregnant women in labour. You're labouring with other women here? Yeah.

oh my gosh yeah you're just in one big room with curtains separating you and you can hear everything everything yeah are people like screaming and scared it's scary yeah yeah you hear everything well in the hold in the holding bit first there was people yeah i don't know what to call it that's what you would call it yeah there were people laboring in there yeah so but you can't like hear anything like you're in your own room

oh my gosh yeah you're just in one big room with curtains separating you and you can hear everything everything yeah are people like screaming and scared it's scary yeah yeah you hear everything well in the hold in the holding bit first there was people yeah i don't know what to call it that's what you would call it yeah there were people laboring in there yeah so but you can't like hear anything like you're in your own room

where you are yeah yeah i know that's i know it's the difference with nhs well you're just free so the theater is where like high risk goes sorry what yeah yeah yeah so yeah if you're at low risk you're in the communal area but high risk you're in your own private bits because you need to be monitored like there's a nurse on you monitoring you the whole time so i had a thing around baby's heart and a thing around my heart

where you are yeah yeah i know that's i know it's the difference with nhs well you're just free so the theater is where like high risk goes sorry what yeah yeah yeah so yeah if you're at low risk you're in the communal area but high risk you're in your own private bits because you need to be monitored like there's a nurse on you monitoring you the whole time so i had a thing around baby's heart and a thing around my heart

Um, and then it's kind of like, it's a bit of a blur now, but hours have gone by and then by this point they were like, right, you're actually, you're good to go. You can do your water birth like you wanted to do. Um, so I was like, great.

Um, and then it's kind of like, it's a bit of a blur now, but hours have gone by and then by this point they were like, right, you're actually, you're good to go. You can do your water birth like you wanted to do. Um, so I was like, great.

So I got wheeled into that unit and then they checked me again when I was in there and the amount of blood that she pulled out, she was like, no, no, no, you need to go back that way. Um, so I had to get taken back. So I was like, for fuck's sake, like, you know, your emotions are like this thinking,

So I got wheeled into that unit and then they checked me again when I was in there and the amount of blood that she pulled out, she was like, no, no, no, you need to go back that way. Um, so I had to get taken back. So I was like, for fuck's sake, like, you know, your emotions are like this thinking,

what's going on um and hours and hours have gone by and i finally caved into gas and air um and i was sucking on it like no tomorrow i was like babe i don't think this is working she said to me it's not working i was like let me test it i did i was like

what's going on um and hours and hours have gone by and i finally caved into gas and air um and i was sucking on it like no tomorrow i was like babe i don't think this is working she said to me it's not working i was like let me test it i did i was like

Yeah, I don't know if, did you do gas and air?

Yeah, I don't know if, did you do gas and air?

That's not really as big of a thing. They don't even offer that.

That's not really as big of a thing. They don't even offer that.

I was like, it's not working.

I was like, it's not working.

Yeah, but for me it wasn't touching the sides. I was in so much pain. Yeah, it's so much pain. Yeah, so much pain. I had no idea how painful it was.

Yeah, but for me it wasn't touching the sides. I was in so much pain. Yeah, it's so much pain. Yeah, so much pain. I had no idea how painful it was.

Oh, I'm going to sit him down and watch it.

Oh, I'm going to sit him down and watch it.

I've always been happy with having two kids, but you've always wanted three.

I've always been happy with having two kids, but you've always wanted three.

more yeah more 36 hours in total yeah so but at some point in them 36 hours i was like i can't do this anymore i can't i like i need i need an epidural i can't do it the nurse kept checking me and i wasn't dilating i think i was only like three four four centimeters at this point um bear in mind you need to get to 10 obviously i know you know that but just anyone listening um

more yeah more 36 hours in total yeah so but at some point in them 36 hours i was like i can't do this anymore i can't i like i need i need an epidural i can't do it the nurse kept checking me and i wasn't dilating i think i was only like three four four centimeters at this point um bear in mind you need to get to 10 obviously i know you know that but just anyone listening um

And my waters still hadn't broken either at this point. And I was refusing everything. They're like, do you want us to break your waters? I was like, no, I don't want you to touch me. I don't want to do it all on my own. But then again, it got to the point where I needed an epidural. I genuinely thought I was going to die. That is the pain I was in.

And my waters still hadn't broken either at this point. And I was refusing everything. They're like, do you want us to break your waters? I was like, no, I don't want you to touch me. I don't want to do it all on my own. But then again, it got to the point where I needed an epidural. I genuinely thought I was going to die. That is the pain I was in.

Thinking back, people have been speaking to other mums. I don't think it was normal, the pain I was experiencing.

Thinking back, people have been speaking to other mums. I don't think it was normal, the pain I was experiencing.

So apparently it's not a myth. It's not.

So apparently it's not a myth. It's not.

Yeah, and as I said, I wasn't dialing, so there was no room for him to go. So it was kind of like all these contractions were happening, and it was just getting more and more stuck. Probably maybe fit what happened to you, the whole him getting stuck thing.

Yeah, and as I said, I wasn't dialing, so there was no room for him to go. So it was kind of like all these contractions were happening, and it was just getting more and more stuck. Probably maybe fit what happened to you, the whole him getting stuck thing.

but yeah first epidural I had as many top ups as I could and it just wasn't working I was in still so much pain to the point where I was begging them to give me another one I was begging I was crying I was like I need and then The girl that was in the ward with me, she was, I think, quite new. So she was doing everything by the book. And she was like, I can't, I can't.

but yeah first epidural I had as many top ups as I could and it just wasn't working I was in still so much pain to the point where I was begging them to give me another one I was begging I was crying I was like I need and then The girl that was in the ward with me, she was, I think, quite new. So she was doing everything by the book. And she was like, I can't, I can't.

He was walking around the whole villa all the time like an old man.

He was walking around the whole villa all the time like an old man.

I was like, you don't understand. Like, I need... And then, luckily, another nurse came in. I just grabbed her. I was like, you need to help me. Like, you need to help me. So she was like, okay, I'll go and get you some help. And by this point, all the doctors and nurses were doing a changeover because it was a new day. So I had to wait for all my notes to be handed over, everyone to...

I was like, you don't understand. Like, I need... And then, luckily, another nurse came in. I just grabbed her. I was like, you need to help me. Like, you need to help me. So she was like, okay, I'll go and get you some help. And by this point, all the doctors and nurses were doing a changeover because it was a new day. So I had to wait for all my notes to be handed over, everyone to...

do a new shift whatever they were doing and i think eventually this is about hour this must be an hour 34 now yeah yeah and eventually i got a second epidural and i think they dosed me up to the max i think i've got a spinal block at the same time as well but the first time in the whole time that she was chilled yeah the first i could breathe like i could breathe i could have a sip of tea like i could eat something what was that whole first part like for you

do a new shift whatever they were doing and i think eventually this is about hour this must be an hour 34 now yeah yeah and eventually i got a second epidural and i think they dosed me up to the max i think i've got a spinal block at the same time as well but the first time in the whole time that she was chilled yeah the first i could breathe like i could breathe i could have a sip of tea like i could eat something what was that whole first part like for you

i mean i don't like seeing you pain in general but that much pain it was just yeah it was horrible i mean that's why i remember so specifically that's one time i was just looking up at the ceiling like i was actually thinking i'm actually gonna die and like i could see you were looking at me and like the tears just streaming on my face like i can't actually i didn't think i could do it i honestly can't get emotional

i mean i don't like seeing you pain in general but that much pain it was just yeah it was horrible i mean that's why i remember so specifically that's one time i was just looking up at the ceiling like i was actually thinking i'm actually gonna die and like i could see you were looking at me and like the tears just streaming on my face like i can't actually i didn't think i could do it i honestly can't get emotional

Yeah, I didn't think I could do it. So it was this point where the nurse was like, Emily, you need to think about a plan B here because this baby's not going to come. And I was like, there's no way I'm having a C-section. That was not any... All the books I was reading, I'd always get past C-section. I was like, there's no way I'm going to have a C-section. I'm going to boss this.

Yeah, I didn't think I could do it. So it was this point where the nurse was like, Emily, you need to think about a plan B here because this baby's not going to come. And I was like, there's no way I'm having a C-section. That was not any... All the books I was reading, I'd always get past C-section. I was like, there's no way I'm going to have a C-section. I'm going to boss this.

But she was like, Emily, you're going to have to. And I was so... I asked her to leave and we spoke about it. My mum was there as well and was also speaking about it. And the main thing, obviously, was just getting Reggie out safe and sound. So, obviously, I did it. So she came in with all the paperwork. I had to sign my life away, like you do.

But she was like, Emily, you're going to have to. And I was so... I asked her to leave and we spoke about it. My mum was there as well and was also speaking about it. And the main thing, obviously, was just getting Reggie out safe and sound. So, obviously, I did it. So she came in with all the paperwork. I had to sign my life away, like you do.

And, yeah, next thing you know, I'm being wheeled into theatre, another theatre room. And, God, it's not over there, guys, because that's when I had a panic attack. Fuck!

And, yeah, next thing you know, I'm being wheeled into theatre, another theatre room. And, God, it's not over there, guys, because that's when I had a panic attack. Fuck!

I was just I think I was so just in the operating room yeah I was so exhausted so drugged up like I just was out of it and they couldn't operate on me because I was panicking so much like I think they're like Emily you need to stop you need to stop shaking you need to stop stop breathing because I was like

I was just I think I was so just in the operating room yeah I was so exhausted so drugged up like I just was out of it and they couldn't operate on me because I was panicking so much like I think they're like Emily you need to stop you need to stop shaking you need to stop stop breathing because I was like

Not Viagra?

Not Viagra?

Well, no, that's pretty much it. Within 10 minutes of that, baby was born. He was born on his due date. So one in the morning on his due date. That's so rare. So after all of that, I was like, oh, my God. Then by the time he got put on me, I was just so out of it. I said, baby. I was like, no. I was still shaking uncontrollably. I was like, baby, you need to take him off me. I'm going to hurt him.

Well, no, that's pretty much it. Within 10 minutes of that, baby was born. He was born on his due date. So one in the morning on his due date. That's so rare. So after all of that, I was like, oh, my God. Then by the time he got put on me, I was just so out of it. I said, baby. I was like, no. I was still shaking uncontrollably. I was like, baby, you need to take him off me. I'm going to hurt him.

So, but yeah, it was just, and then it was just emotional. I think I was throwing up, wasn't I?

So, but yeah, it was just, and then it was just emotional. I think I was throwing up, wasn't I?

The baby's in the room with you. Yeah, yeah. And bear in mind, I'm now wheeled back in the communal area of all the other new mums. I've just had major surgery. Mm-hmm.

The baby's in the room with you. Yeah, yeah. And bear in mind, I'm now wheeled back in the communal area of all the other new mums. I've just had major surgery. Mm-hmm.

like you know no i could not have done that and they say yeah his visiting hours are 10 till 6 and i literally i was like you would you're gonna have to physically remove me from this hospital i'm not i'm not leaving as well i stayed on i slept on the floor on this rock hard floor i'm freezing cold as well yeah and then and it got to about 5 a.m i looked he's still there i was like babe just get in the bed just get in the bed in this single bed like this oh so you'd stayed

like you know no i could not have done that and they say yeah his visiting hours are 10 till 6 and i literally i was like you would you're gonna have to physically remove me from this hospital i'm not i'm not leaving as well i stayed on i slept on the floor on this rock hard floor i'm freezing cold as well yeah and then and it got to about 5 a.m i looked he's still there i was like babe just get in the bed just get in the bed in this single bed like this oh so you'd stayed

everywhere no no you don't understand i was a proper karen because my baby was so drugged up and all the drugs they were giving me he was so docile he didn't make a sound really and then there were all these babies taking it in turns to cry cry cry throughout the night and i obviously i'm knackered i haven't slept in days haven't eaten and i'm just like will you shut your babies up

everywhere no no you don't understand i was a proper karen because my baby was so drugged up and all the drugs they were giving me he was so docile he didn't make a sound really and then there were all these babies taking it in turns to cry cry cry throughout the night and i obviously i'm knackered i haven't slept in days haven't eaten and i'm just like will you shut your babies up

Okay, well, I would happily be pregnant again right now.

Okay, well, I would happily be pregnant again right now.

I was like, I'm getting so pissed off. And that's when they were like, you need to stay the night. I was like, you're going to argue. I would have been keeping you up. Right?

I was like, I'm getting so pissed off. And that's when they were like, you need to stay the night. I was like, you're going to argue. I would have been keeping you up. Right?

But then at least you were in your own private room, you know?

But then at least you were in your own private room, you know?

Oh yeah, I did, didn't I? Yeah, because I wasn't passing any urine.

Oh yeah, I did, didn't I? Yeah, because I wasn't passing any urine.

Oh my God. That's the first thing they do to you. I even had to have pessary.

Oh my God. That's the first thing they do to you. I even had to have pessary.

Because I wasn't pooing and I was scared that I was going to poo when I was giving birth. They put two huge things on me. She had the lot, honestly. Yeah, and I was trying to go to the toilet in between contractions. Oh my God. What was your postpartum at least period? Better? Oh, it's great. Day two, I was doing the laundry.

Because I wasn't pooing and I was scared that I was going to poo when I was giving birth. They put two huge things on me. She had the lot, honestly. Yeah, and I was trying to go to the toilet in between contractions. Oh my God. What was your postpartum at least period? Better? Oh, it's great. Day two, I was doing the laundry.

Yeah, but he doesn't know how to work the washing machine.

Yeah, but he doesn't know how to work the washing machine.

Don't you dare, Ed. Don't you dare air my dirty laundry.

Don't you dare, Ed. Don't you dare air my dirty laundry.

Yeah, but they didn't do anything.

Yeah, but they didn't do anything.

Like he, he fucked up a couple of times on the show, but I was just like, that's okay. I'm here whenever you're ready. Like, that's fine.

Like he, he fucked up a couple of times on the show, but I was just like, that's okay. I'm here whenever you're ready. Like, that's fine.

Well, for second baby, you guys will be so prepared.

Well, for second baby, you guys will be so prepared.

Thank God for TikTok, right? Honestly, thank God. I don't know what I would have done without that.

Thank God for TikTok, right? Honestly, thank God. I don't know what I would have done without that.

Yeah, yeah. First meal, here's a bolognese. Yeah.

Yeah, yeah. First meal, here's a bolognese. Yeah.

Too much. You were a problem.

Too much. You were a problem.

Oh, my God. And this is what I was going to say about the breastfeeding thing. Oh, yeah, that was... So obviously I was so looking forward to breastfeeding and I loved it whilst I did it, but he just wasn't latching properly and he was throwing up a lot. And we knew he had colic and reflux, but this just wasn't normal.

Oh, my God. And this is what I was going to say about the breastfeeding thing. Oh, yeah, that was... So obviously I was so looking forward to breastfeeding and I loved it whilst I did it, but he just wasn't latching properly and he was throwing up a lot. And we knew he had colic and reflux, but this just wasn't normal.

And we took him to a specialist and they said, do you know your baby's tongue, lip and cheek tied? I went, pardon? I was like, no, no, no. The midwife checked him at the hospital and she said he was fine. She was like, no, no, he's severely tongue tied. I'm just like, this could have all been prevented. Had they just done their checks properly. But there's such a common problem.

And we took him to a specialist and they said, do you know your baby's tongue, lip and cheek tied? I went, pardon? I was like, no, no, no. The midwife checked him at the hospital and she said he was fine. She was like, no, no, he's severely tongue tied. I'm just like, this could have all been prevented. Had they just done their checks properly. But there's such a common problem.

I don't know about America, but in the UK, it's such a common problem. They just misdiagnose things. They just look past everything.

I don't know about America, but in the UK, it's such a common problem. They just misdiagnose things. They just look past everything.

Yeah, so it was painful for me. And poor Reggie. He was taking in so much air because he couldn't...

Yeah, so it was painful for me. And poor Reggie. He was taking in so much air because he couldn't...

latch properly he was just using it as a dummy really yeah he wasn't taking anything in so then he cried he's hungry but hang on you've just been feeding for like 20 minutes so it was really really difficult to know that was a stressful period that yeah so the the guy because luckily he was still only a few weeks out no six weeks at this point yeah six weeks old um laser lasered it all off i don't know how you do it in america but in here they just laser laser it all off and he didn't even he didn't move it didn't move yeah it's crazy screen and just

latch properly he was just using it as a dummy really yeah he wasn't taking anything in so then he cried he's hungry but hang on you've just been feeding for like 20 minutes so it was really really difficult to know that was a stressful period that yeah so the the guy because luckily he was still only a few weeks out no six weeks at this point yeah six weeks old um laser lasered it all off i don't know how you do it in america but in here they just laser laser it all off and he didn't even he didn't move it didn't move yeah it's crazy screen and just

Yeah. Wow. But that definitely solved a lot of problems. But by that point, he was still having issues. And then it turns out he's got a dairy intolerance. And did you know there's dairy in your breast milk? Because I didn't.

Yeah. Wow. But that definitely solved a lot of problems. But by that point, he was still having issues. And then it turns out he's got a dairy intolerance. And did you know there's dairy in your breast milk? Because I didn't.

i felt like yeah yeah oh my god right well i can't imagine you if he wasn't getting the milk out and so i was having to soothe him pump with the other one and then because that wasn't enough coming out to have to then formula feed him like it was just like it was like a triple triple system yeah yeah exactly so for so long it was just like a triple thing all the time we were just like

i felt like yeah yeah oh my god right well i can't imagine you if he wasn't getting the milk out and so i was having to soothe him pump with the other one and then because that wasn't enough coming out to have to then formula feed him like it was just like it was like a triple triple system yeah yeah exactly so for so long it was just like a triple thing all the time we were just like

I still am. The thing is, being a mom, you're just like superwoman. You just honestly forget about all the pain and the shit. Like, you just do. Like, we're built that way. We're designed to forget about it.

I still am. The thing is, being a mom, you're just like superwoman. You just honestly forget about all the pain and the shit. Like, you just do. Like, we're built that way. We're designed to forget about it.

Like, all over you. Yeah, all over. Everywhere. The walls. Oh, my God. It's been over our walls multiple times, hasn't it? But, yeah, you're just designed to forget about it. So... I guess that's why. And I guess because the good outweighs the bad like so much. So, yeah.

Like, all over you. Yeah, all over. Everywhere. The walls. Oh, my God. It's been over our walls multiple times, hasn't it? But, yeah, you're just designed to forget about it. So... I guess that's why. And I guess because the good outweighs the bad like so much. So, yeah.

Yeah. Oh, the scrunchie.

Yeah. Oh, the scrunchie.

yeah well i mean you and all my uh boys in my family've got size 11 feet so there's no way that he's not gonna have big feet he's very big limbs he is he's nine months but he fits in 12 months now like yeah she's got really long legs

yeah well i mean you and all my uh boys in my family've got size 11 feet so there's no way that he's not gonna have big feet he's very big limbs he is he's nine months but he fits in 12 months now like yeah she's got really long legs

Yeah, mine's not as big. I've got two brothers. My mum and dad have always fostered as well, so there's always like... No way. That's really cool. Yeah, I've never met anyone else that fosters, and his mum fosters, and my mum fosters. No way. Yeah. That's awesome.

Yeah, mine's not as big. I've got two brothers. My mum and dad have always fostered as well, so there's always like... No way. That's really cool. Yeah, I've never met anyone else that fosters, and his mum fosters, and my mum fosters. No way. Yeah. That's awesome.

No. Really?

No. Really?

Yeah, it was intense. No, there were some great times, there were some great times, but it's a lot of effort. And there's, you know, the kids...

Yeah, it was intense. No, there were some great times, there were some great times, but it's a lot of effort. And there's, you know, the kids...

definitely here like a lot of them don't want to be helped you know they're kind of been dragged away from their home yeah you know they don't want to be there so you know they make life very difficult you know we've had a lot of things stolen like you know in the past they've abused like you know lashed out my mum and dad uh police around all the time so it's just like

definitely here like a lot of them don't want to be helped you know they're kind of been dragged away from their home yeah you know they don't want to be there so you know they make life very difficult you know we've had a lot of things stolen like you know in the past they've abused like you know lashed out my mum and dad uh police around all the time so it's just like

Yeah. Being around. Yeah. Yeah. Like I said, there were some great times, you know, but yeah. Do y'all think you want to have a big family too?

Yeah. Being around. Yeah. Yeah. Like I said, there were some great times, you know, but yeah. Do y'all think you want to have a big family too?

Yeah. Well, I've always been happy with the thought of having two kids, but you've always wanted three.

Yeah. Well, I've always been happy with the thought of having two kids, but you've always wanted three.

Three and a dog, yeah.

Three and a dog, yeah.

Well, yeah, just ask them when, do you think? I need answers.

Well, yeah, just ask them when, do you think? I need answers.

No, well, I would happily be pregnant again right now. Like, definitely this year. And we did actually agree that after Reggie's first birthday that we would start trying.

No, well, I would happily be pregnant again right now. Like, definitely this year. And we did actually agree that after Reggie's first birthday that we would start trying.

We did agree. We did. But... Sometimes they get cold feet. Yeah. And I feel like we're not going to put pressure on it. If it happens, it happens. But otherwise, I think we are going to hold off until maybe the year after. Yeah. Wait, I'm getting so confused.

We did agree. We did. But... Sometimes they get cold feet. Yeah. And I feel like we're not going to put pressure on it. If it happens, it happens. But otherwise, I think we are going to hold off until maybe the year after. Yeah. Wait, I'm getting so confused.

And I think for me, I am now focusing on getting hot this summer. I want like a milf body. So that's what I'm talking about.

And I think for me, I am now focusing on getting hot this summer. I want like a milf body. So that's what I'm talking about.

So COVID just hit. So it was in our first year of that. And I was like, get me out of this country. And then they messaged me for the show. And I just thought, why the hell not? Like, okay. Didn't think anything of it. Didn't think I'd get anywhere near to like going on.

So COVID just hit. So it was in our first year of that. And I was like, get me out of this country. And then they messaged me for the show. And I just thought, why the hell not? Like, okay. Didn't think anything of it. Didn't think I'd get anywhere near to like going on.

And then they just kind of, because we couldn't meet in person because of COVID, so we just kept having Zooms and they kept wanting to speak to me again. I was like, it's really weird. Why do they keep wanting to speak to me? I had like 4,000 or 5,000 followers, like nothing. And then, yeah, next thing you know, they said, right, pack your things, you're off. I was like, mum, I'm going, see ya.

And then they just kind of, because we couldn't meet in person because of COVID, so we just kept having Zooms and they kept wanting to speak to me again. I was like, it's really weird. Why do they keep wanting to speak to me? I had like 4,000 or 5,000 followers, like nothing. And then, yeah, next thing you know, they said, right, pack your things, you're off. I was like, mum, I'm going, see ya.

And I had no expectations. I honestly had, really had no idea what I was letting myself into, to be honest. I was honestly just going for a good time.

And I had no expectations. I honestly had, really had no idea what I was letting myself into, to be honest. I was honestly just going for a good time.

you're very it was very much like live in the moment doesn't doesn't think things through too much i'm like the forward thinker and just like yeah it'd be fun let's go yeah that's literally was my yeah that was literally mine what did friends and family think about the show or like you going on my brothers initially were like oh for god's sake emily like this is just typically typical you like embarrassing us like all of this but in hindsight actually now

you're very it was very much like live in the moment doesn't doesn't think things through too much i'm like the forward thinker and just like yeah it'd be fun let's go yeah that's literally was my yeah that was literally mine what did friends and family think about the show or like you going on my brothers initially were like oh for god's sake emily like this is just typically typical you like embarrassing us like all of this but in hindsight actually now

Instead of Lion King, we're going to watch Too Hot to Handle. He had to go see a doctor. Wait, I just heard that was fake.

Instead of Lion King, we're going to watch Too Hot to Handle. He had to go see a doctor. Wait, I just heard that was fake.

off the back of it it's actually brought me and my family all closer I think it's before the show I was kind of like I was in a dead-end job like living for the weekends not really having much going for myself um had no like aspirations or anything so yeah now I'm like successful and got my together

off the back of it it's actually brought me and my family all closer I think it's before the show I was kind of like I was in a dead-end job like living for the weekends not really having much going for myself um had no like aspirations or anything so yeah now I'm like successful and got my together

Oh, I'm going to sit him down and watch it.

Oh, I'm going to sit him down and watch it.

Yeah, that's going to be... Instead of Lion King, we're going to watch Too Hot to Handle.

Yeah, that's going to be... Instead of Lion King, we're going to watch Too Hot to Handle.

I love... I often watch it back. I love it.

I love... I often watch it back. I love it.

It's fine. Whatever.

It's fine. Whatever.

no no okay all right because i wouldn't want to watch that would you want to watch your mom and dad no would you want to watch your dad in the shower yeah no you wouldn't i wouldn't but i mean you can't actually see anything no you can't see anything it's obviously very big cameras in the shower in the toilets yeah cameras everywhere yeah how so some some editors are seeing you and your privates all the time yeah you sign up for that

no no okay all right because i wouldn't want to watch that would you want to watch your mom and dad no would you want to watch your dad in the shower yeah no you wouldn't i wouldn't but i mean you can't actually see anything no you can't see anything it's obviously very big cameras in the shower in the toilets yeah cameras everywhere yeah how so some some editors are seeing you and your privates all the time yeah you sign up for that

Yeah, you'd have to sign the dotted line.

Yeah, you'd have to sign the dotted line.

I remember one time I was in the villa, and we had no idea. It's called the galley, where all the TV screens are for all the hundreds of cameras in the villa. And one day, do you remember walking past, and there was a secret door open, and we could see in the galley. And honestly, you could see everything everywhere, all like this. And they saw me looking in, and they went, and they shut the door.

I remember one time I was in the villa, and we had no idea. It's called the galley, where all the TV screens are for all the hundreds of cameras in the villa. And one day, do you remember walking past, and there was a secret door open, and we could see in the galley. And honestly, you could see everything everywhere, all like this. And they saw me looking in, and they went, and they shut the door.

I was like, oh my God. And they're literally living in the middle of the villa.

I was like, oh my God. And they're literally living in the middle of the villa.

How much did it cost her? It was free. Big fat zero.

How much did it cost her? It was free. Big fat zero.

Well, no. What about when you nearly kissed Christina? No.

Well, no. What about when you nearly kissed Christina? No.

Oh, I'm so different.

Oh, I'm so different.

I've matured so much.

I've matured so much.

we didn't yeah to be quite honest it was I wouldn't say mistake but it was unexpected yeah it wasn't a mistake it was it was it was not planned yeah it wasn't planned yeah but I just knew because before I fell pregnant with Reggie I was pregnant before but it was an ectopic pregnancy so I just knew that you know there was never any option I was going to have the baby yeah so I you know I don't really know what you want to say on it

we didn't yeah to be quite honest it was I wouldn't say mistake but it was unexpected yeah it wasn't a mistake it was it was it was not planned yeah it wasn't planned yeah but I just knew because before I fell pregnant with Reggie I was pregnant before but it was an ectopic pregnancy so I just knew that you know there was never any option I was going to have the baby yeah so I you know I don't really know what you want to say on it

The first pregnancy? No, this one.

The first pregnancy? No, this one.

Yeah, exactly. Yeah. It was going on for about a week, but I had to have the fetus removed at nine weeks. But honestly, that's fine now. I'm absolutely fine about that. You know, everything happens for a reason. But I'm just so lucky that you can still have babies after. You know, Reggie's perfect and healthy and happy. So, and the pregnancy, I love being pregnant. So it's all perfect.

Yeah, exactly. Yeah. It was going on for about a week, but I had to have the fetus removed at nine weeks. But honestly, that's fine now. I'm absolutely fine about that. You know, everything happens for a reason. But I'm just so lucky that you can still have babies after. You know, Reggie's perfect and healthy and happy. So, and the pregnancy, I love being pregnant. So it's all perfect.

this is the type of woman that other women are just so i look like a beach whale you look like a goddess beautiful so i felt beautiful honestly yeah i loved it i loved it i'd always get my bump out like i loved it i was so empowered That's incredible for you.

this is the type of woman that other women are just so i look like a beach whale you look like a goddess beautiful so i felt beautiful honestly yeah i loved it i loved it i'd always get my bump out like i loved it i was so empowered That's incredible for you.

Yeah. Yeah, I mean, truth be told, we were quite early into our relationship still, so we were a bit skeptical what we were going to do with the baby. It was like, you know, were we going to keep it or not? We weren't sure about us at the time as well. We were going through a bit of a rough patch. But then when we finally decided to say, yeah, we're going to keep this baby,

Yeah. Yeah, I mean, truth be told, we were quite early into our relationship still, so we were a bit skeptical what we were going to do with the baby. It was like, you know, were we going to keep it or not? We weren't sure about us at the time as well. We were going through a bit of a rough patch. But then when we finally decided to say, yeah, we're going to keep this baby,

To then find out that this was happening, yeah, it was horrible.

To then find out that this was happening, yeah, it was horrible.

But I remember at the time as well, the pain I was in, it was so painful. And I was just back in paracetamol. I was just like, no, it's fine, it's whatever. But to the point where it just got excruciating. I collapsed in the supermarket. You had to carry me home, because at the time we lived in a flat, it's like a walk distance.

But I remember at the time as well, the pain I was in, it was so painful. And I was just back in paracetamol. I was just like, no, it's fine, it's whatever. But to the point where it just got excruciating. I collapsed in the supermarket. You had to carry me home, because at the time we lived in a flat, it's like a walk distance.

You had to carry me home, and then you're like, right, we need to call the ambulance. And I was like, no, no, no, I hate that kind of thing. I was like, I'm not dragging attention, I don't need an ambulance. Just give me some more paracetamol, I'm fine. And then eventually I called 111 and they were like, no, we're sending out an ambulance to you. And it all happened so quick, wasn't it?

You had to carry me home, and then you're like, right, we need to call the ambulance. And I was like, no, no, no, I hate that kind of thing. I was like, I'm not dragging attention, I don't need an ambulance. Just give me some more paracetamol, I'm fine. And then eventually I called 111 and they were like, no, we're sending out an ambulance to you. And it all happened so quick, wasn't it?

I'm lucky we did it in time because it could have led to... Yeah, they said if I left it a day or two more, it could have been fatal.

I'm lucky we did it in time because it could have led to... Yeah, they said if I left it a day or two more, it could have been fatal.

It was growing so big in my fallopian tube that it would have burst.

It was growing so big in my fallopian tube that it would have burst.

Yeah, I think it's been raised to 45% now. Oh my, wait, wait. If you earn a certain amount, you'll get taxed 45%.

And at the time... Can I just say on the receiving end of that, it was crazy for me because I thought he was like this confident guy, like, you know, didn't care about anything. And then to see him just switch, it was... I've never been with a guy who was so, like, emotional. And I honestly didn't think guys had feelings at the time. So it was crazy for me to...

I guess it's just like a bunch of hot singles swanning around in bikinis. But you're not allowed to have sex or kiss or they call it heavy petting. I thought that was funny.

honestly i feel like i can handle heart say that i'm very lucky and that i haven't had that like i feel like my followers are so loyal that i've not actually experienced like a crash in anything like a little bit but it's been like a gradual thing so it's like whatever but i have never taken anything like too seriously like i am very well aware that i have a sell-by date so i'm always expecting to just you know one day be irrelevant and i'm absolutely fine with that that's not gonna happen

Not an American thing.

Yeah, and see, if I was a housewife and had the time, I would do that for you.

In the kitchen.

Yeah, we had an animal.

Oh, I've seen that video recently.

Yeah. I mean. We got a big fridge. Ours is like. Wow. Who knows as long as you? It's bigger than me, for sure. Way taller than me.

I can get inside of it if I need to. So when it gets to 40, 50 degrees, whatever.

I saw tank tops. Today? Yesterday.

Yeah, who's normally in t-shirts?

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's why it's clean. Yeah, I feel like.

Oh, yeah, people aren't allowed to flick their fag butts anymore, are they? It's a cigarette.

I knew that. That means it's a very dry cigarette. No, we call them fags. It's a fag butt. So if a woman had bought a fag, Really? I knew that.

Absolutely not. Not really. Yeah, it's actually pretty wild in the UK.

So he'll have food like faggots and sausages, right? Yeah, great. Really nice food, faggots. So faggots, you can go and eat faggots.

Yeah, faggots and peas.

Come on. I was a good girl. I was 16. I waited till I was legal.

um so like but then i think but do you say bloody like that's our like yes like oh bloody hell i learned that from reading harry potter as a kid yeah that's hilarious if kids were saying hell like that would be like really that's a no-no for you guys yeah oh nice yeah what are you saying what

You ever had to do that?

Yeah.

You literally had to do that?

His parents were pretty strict.

18.

Oh, you're good. I didn't touch it.

It rolled. Sorry, sorry, sorry.

so that's not legal uh no yeah he's a criminal so we went on the show obviously as these kind of like loose wild singles yeah and you thought it was like a partying show yeah we initially yeah like they hype you up and say listen you go wild like get with whoever so for the first few days like we were under the impression that's what we were doing yeah um so when we finally formed connection like me and you because we as soon as I saw him I was like you're mine like I just knew it and then I was like right I'm ready to do the deed I want to do it with you

Do a Welsh impression. Do a Welsh impression.

Let me give some context. We was on holiday for his birthday, took him away. And I planned, I was going to tell him, I found out just before we were flying. So I was like, printed off some pictures to like, for his birthday and all, it's pinning pictures around just for about a year together. And so I had this picture of the pregnancy test, I was going to pin it somewhere so he could see it.

And then just something in me was like, no, that doesn't seem right. I'm just not going to do it that way. So I took the picture down. I didn't have the picture up. And I kind of just waited and kind of brewed on it. And I let him have his birthday. So I told him the next day at dinner. And we were getting some wine. He was like, oh, let's get a bottle of wine.

I was like, I don't really fancy a drink. And immediately that rang alarm bells for him because I love a glass of wine. And he was a bit like, OK, are you feeling OK? And I was like, yeah, I just need to go to the toilet. I went to the toilet. I was in the mirror. I was like, right, Emily, why are you so nervous? Just compose yourself. Like, it's fine. I don't know why I was so nervous.

It's just something in me was like, I just knew he was going to like, just, I don't know. Cause it's such a shock, I think. So then I came back out and I just said straight away, I was like, Cam, I'm pregnant. And he went, I think you spat your drink out, didn't you? Yeah. You were like, what?

With curtains separating you.

i was like i'm pregnant and i think we ended up leaving the restaurant didn't we yeah we did it's like i think more because i was upset because i was so excited to tell him and being pregnant i was so excited being pregnant again because what happened last time that kind of you just sort of shut it all down for me didn't you and i hate i hate that i reacted that way but in a weird way i needed to in order to like be okay with everything and like by the time i really

Anyway, that's when Lana, the robot, comes out to ruin all the fun. Basically, the premise of the show is, like, to abstain.

I know, you were excited about the pregnancy as well.

Oh, yeah. I was ready to leave him. I was like, fine, I'm going to do this on my own. Are you kidding? Yeah, yeah, yeah. I was like, I'm doing this on my own. I'm keeping the baby, whether you like it or not.

Fine, I'll do it on my own.

No. It's not really a thing here. No.

like we're not even engaged and I want another baby before like I care more about that side than getting married so people always like in our comments oh when are you going to put a ring on it and I'm like what you don't know is obviously you do want like you do want a ring but like Em's actually not that bothered she wants to have kids and be a mum yeah like I know we're in a you know loving committed relationship so like I think because my parents were never married and you come from you know divorced parents a lot of divorces huh a lot of divorces how many yeah it's just a lot of like separation in the families

There's just no rush for us. You know, we're in it for the long run. So it's just kind of like.

They're together. Oh, they're not together anymore.

Yeah. Yeah. But then a lot of them also had separated. So it was never like a taboo. Like, I mean, it wasn't even a question that friends asked. Like, I think they just expected that they were married. So, yeah, I think, you know, it was never really an issue or even spoken about, to be honest.

You say, no. I hear you on the phone. You go, my partner.

Like, oh, like, shut up.

Yeah, no.

there's two people that you know have to decide you have to be on the same page kind of yeah but no i love being pregnant i had you know no sickness like no aches or pains nothing like my skin was glowing my skin has never been so clear like my hair was thick and shiny and long like I looked great. Honestly. And then I fell apart. I fell apart after. So.

Yeah.

I know. My boobs. Oh my God. I've never had boobs before. And they were like this.

Yeah, he had to go see a doctor because he's blue balls.

Christ. Oh yeah. Was that not allowed? No.

No, no, do you know what?

I was expecting chips.

Or fat ones. Fat ones, yeah.

If that's a customer service thing, it might be. It's probably because we're always in a rush in this country. So they're probably like thinking that you just know just to get it all out there. You would have discussed what you both wanted before and you would have just gone straight for the order.

You'll do it for the both of us.

Well, no, we split the rent half and half. Yeah, we split the rent. And because in the past I've paid for more stuff, like with living situations, in this house he said that he was going to pay the bills. Now, he hasn't paid any of the bills yet. Now it's come round to it. He's like, oh, Em, you charge your car in the house, so do you not think you should contribute to the bills?

I'm like, no, actually. The bills come through.

He's a criminal.

yeah um yeah that's i mean it was awful to be honest i cannot everything that went wrong sorry went wrong yeah um i was bleeding as soon as i went into labor my i don't know what you call it we call like a mucus plug is that what you call it yeah so that went but then the blood just wouldn't stop just like naturally naturally yeah they tried to induce me but i was like no like i really want to do like sort of

Do you all think you want to have a big family?

like hypnobirthing type vibe. Like I wanted to do it all natural. Like I was in control. Like I'd done so much reading, spoke to so many experts. I was like, I've got this. Um, but yeah, so when my mucus plug went, I just didn't stop bleeding. Was it at 40 weeks or? I was bang on. Yeah. Bang on 40 weeks. Um, it was actually the day before my due date. Okay. Or a couple of days.

It must've been a couple of days.

A couple of days. Yeah. Um, so I got taken into hospital. Um, And even though I wasn't dilated enough, because I was bleeding so much, they were like, right, you need to go down into theatre. And I was on a monitor for a... Into what? Theatre.

It's like... So, like, if I wasn't at risk, you'd be, like, in a communal area with other pregnant women in labour. You're labouring with other women here? Yeah.

oh my gosh yeah you're just in one big room with curtains separating you and you can hear everything everything yeah are people like screaming and scared it's scary yeah yeah you hear everything well in the hold in the holding bit first there was people yeah i don't know what to call it that's what you would call it yeah there were people laboring in there yeah so but you can't like hear anything like you're in your own room

where you are yeah yeah i know that's i know it's the difference with nhs well you're just free so the theater is where like high risk goes sorry what yeah yeah yeah so yeah if you're at low risk you're in the communal area but high risk you're in your own private bits because you need to be monitored like there's a nurse on you monitoring you the whole time so i had a thing around baby's heart and a thing around my heart

Um, and then it's kind of like, it's a bit of a blur now, but hours have gone by and then by this point they were like, right, you're actually, you're good to go. You can do your water birth like you wanted to do. Um, so I was like, great.

So I got wheeled into that unit and then they checked me again when I was in there and the amount of blood that she pulled out, she was like, no, no, no, you need to go back that way. Um, so I had to get taken back. So I was like, for fuck's sake, like, you know, your emotions are like this thinking,

what's going on um and hours and hours have gone by and i finally caved into gas and air um and i was sucking on it like no tomorrow i was like babe i don't think this is working she said to me it's not working i was like let me test it i did i was like

Yeah, I don't know if, did you do gas and air?

That's not really as big of a thing. They don't even offer that.

I was like, it's not working.

Yeah, but for me it wasn't touching the sides. I was in so much pain. Yeah, it's so much pain. Yeah, so much pain. I had no idea how painful it was.

Oh, I'm going to sit him down and watch it.

I've always been happy with having two kids, but you've always wanted three.

more yeah more 36 hours in total yeah so but at some point in them 36 hours i was like i can't do this anymore i can't i like i need i need an epidural i can't do it the nurse kept checking me and i wasn't dilating i think i was only like three four four centimeters at this point um bear in mind you need to get to 10 obviously i know you know that but just anyone listening um

And my waters still hadn't broken either at this point. And I was refusing everything. They're like, do you want us to break your waters? I was like, no, I don't want you to touch me. I don't want to do it all on my own. But then again, it got to the point where I needed an epidural. I genuinely thought I was going to die. That is the pain I was in.

Thinking back, people have been speaking to other mums. I don't think it was normal, the pain I was experiencing.

So apparently it's not a myth. It's not.

Yeah, and as I said, I wasn't dialing, so there was no room for him to go. So it was kind of like all these contractions were happening, and it was just getting more and more stuck. Probably maybe fit what happened to you, the whole him getting stuck thing.

but yeah first epidural I had as many top ups as I could and it just wasn't working I was in still so much pain to the point where I was begging them to give me another one I was begging I was crying I was like I need and then The girl that was in the ward with me, she was, I think, quite new. So she was doing everything by the book. And she was like, I can't, I can't.

He was walking around the whole villa all the time like an old man.

I was like, you don't understand. Like, I need... And then, luckily, another nurse came in. I just grabbed her. I was like, you need to help me. Like, you need to help me. So she was like, okay, I'll go and get you some help. And by this point, all the doctors and nurses were doing a changeover because it was a new day. So I had to wait for all my notes to be handed over, everyone to...

do a new shift whatever they were doing and i think eventually this is about hour this must be an hour 34 now yeah yeah and eventually i got a second epidural and i think they dosed me up to the max i think i've got a spinal block at the same time as well but the first time in the whole time that she was chilled yeah the first i could breathe like i could breathe i could have a sip of tea like i could eat something what was that whole first part like for you

i mean i don't like seeing you pain in general but that much pain it was just yeah it was horrible i mean that's why i remember so specifically that's one time i was just looking up at the ceiling like i was actually thinking i'm actually gonna die and like i could see you were looking at me and like the tears just streaming on my face like i can't actually i didn't think i could do it i honestly can't get emotional

Yeah, I didn't think I could do it. So it was this point where the nurse was like, Emily, you need to think about a plan B here because this baby's not going to come. And I was like, there's no way I'm having a C-section. That was not any... All the books I was reading, I'd always get past C-section. I was like, there's no way I'm going to have a C-section. I'm going to boss this.

But she was like, Emily, you're going to have to. And I was so... I asked her to leave and we spoke about it. My mum was there as well and was also speaking about it. And the main thing, obviously, was just getting Reggie out safe and sound. So, obviously, I did it. So she came in with all the paperwork. I had to sign my life away, like you do.

And, yeah, next thing you know, I'm being wheeled into theatre, another theatre room. And, God, it's not over there, guys, because that's when I had a panic attack. Fuck!

I was just I think I was so just in the operating room yeah I was so exhausted so drugged up like I just was out of it and they couldn't operate on me because I was panicking so much like I think they're like Emily you need to stop you need to stop shaking you need to stop stop breathing because I was like

Not Viagra?

Well, no, that's pretty much it. Within 10 minutes of that, baby was born. He was born on his due date. So one in the morning on his due date. That's so rare. So after all of that, I was like, oh, my God. Then by the time he got put on me, I was just so out of it. I said, baby. I was like, no. I was still shaking uncontrollably. I was like, baby, you need to take him off me. I'm going to hurt him.

So, but yeah, it was just, and then it was just emotional. I think I was throwing up, wasn't I?

The baby's in the room with you. Yeah, yeah. And bear in mind, I'm now wheeled back in the communal area of all the other new mums. I've just had major surgery. Mm-hmm.

like you know no i could not have done that and they say yeah his visiting hours are 10 till 6 and i literally i was like you would you're gonna have to physically remove me from this hospital i'm not i'm not leaving as well i stayed on i slept on the floor on this rock hard floor i'm freezing cold as well yeah and then and it got to about 5 a.m i looked he's still there i was like babe just get in the bed just get in the bed in this single bed like this oh so you'd stayed

everywhere no no you don't understand i was a proper karen because my baby was so drugged up and all the drugs they were giving me he was so docile he didn't make a sound really and then there were all these babies taking it in turns to cry cry cry throughout the night and i obviously i'm knackered i haven't slept in days haven't eaten and i'm just like will you shut your babies up

Okay, well, I would happily be pregnant again right now.

I was like, I'm getting so pissed off. And that's when they were like, you need to stay the night. I was like, you're going to argue. I would have been keeping you up. Right?

But then at least you were in your own private room, you know?

Oh yeah, I did, didn't I? Yeah, because I wasn't passing any urine.

Oh my God. That's the first thing they do to you. I even had to have pessary.

Because I wasn't pooing and I was scared that I was going to poo when I was giving birth. They put two huge things on me. She had the lot, honestly. Yeah, and I was trying to go to the toilet in between contractions. Oh my God. What was your postpartum at least period? Better? Oh, it's great. Day two, I was doing the laundry.

Yeah, but he doesn't know how to work the washing machine.

Don't you dare, Ed. Don't you dare air my dirty laundry.

Yeah, but they didn't do anything.

Like he, he fucked up a couple of times on the show, but I was just like, that's okay. I'm here whenever you're ready. Like, that's fine.

Well, for second baby, you guys will be so prepared.

Thank God for TikTok, right? Honestly, thank God. I don't know what I would have done without that.

Yeah, yeah. First meal, here's a bolognese. Yeah.

Too much. You were a problem.

Oh, my God. And this is what I was going to say about the breastfeeding thing. Oh, yeah, that was... So obviously I was so looking forward to breastfeeding and I loved it whilst I did it, but he just wasn't latching properly and he was throwing up a lot. And we knew he had colic and reflux, but this just wasn't normal.

And we took him to a specialist and they said, do you know your baby's tongue, lip and cheek tied? I went, pardon? I was like, no, no, no. The midwife checked him at the hospital and she said he was fine. She was like, no, no, he's severely tongue tied. I'm just like, this could have all been prevented. Had they just done their checks properly. But there's such a common problem.

I don't know about America, but in the UK, it's such a common problem. They just misdiagnose things. They just look past everything.

Yeah, so it was painful for me. And poor Reggie. He was taking in so much air because he couldn't...

latch properly he was just using it as a dummy really yeah he wasn't taking anything in so then he cried he's hungry but hang on you've just been feeding for like 20 minutes so it was really really difficult to know that was a stressful period that yeah so the the guy because luckily he was still only a few weeks out no six weeks at this point yeah six weeks old um laser lasered it all off i don't know how you do it in america but in here they just laser laser it all off and he didn't even he didn't move it didn't move yeah it's crazy screen and just

Yeah. Wow. But that definitely solved a lot of problems. But by that point, he was still having issues. And then it turns out he's got a dairy intolerance. And did you know there's dairy in your breast milk? Because I didn't.

i felt like yeah yeah oh my god right well i can't imagine you if he wasn't getting the milk out and so i was having to soothe him pump with the other one and then because that wasn't enough coming out to have to then formula feed him like it was just like it was like a triple triple system yeah yeah exactly so for so long it was just like a triple thing all the time we were just like

I still am. The thing is, being a mom, you're just like superwoman. You just honestly forget about all the pain and the shit. Like, you just do. Like, we're built that way. We're designed to forget about it.

Like, all over you. Yeah, all over. Everywhere. The walls. Oh, my God. It's been over our walls multiple times, hasn't it? But, yeah, you're just designed to forget about it. So... I guess that's why. And I guess because the good outweighs the bad like so much. So, yeah.

Yeah. Oh, the scrunchie.

yeah well i mean you and all my uh boys in my family've got size 11 feet so there's no way that he's not gonna have big feet he's very big limbs he is he's nine months but he fits in 12 months now like yeah she's got really long legs

Yeah, mine's not as big. I've got two brothers. My mum and dad have always fostered as well, so there's always like... No way. That's really cool. Yeah, I've never met anyone else that fosters, and his mum fosters, and my mum fosters. No way. Yeah. That's awesome.

No. Really?

Yeah, it was intense. No, there were some great times, there were some great times, but it's a lot of effort. And there's, you know, the kids...

definitely here like a lot of them don't want to be helped you know they're kind of been dragged away from their home yeah you know they don't want to be there so you know they make life very difficult you know we've had a lot of things stolen like you know in the past they've abused like you know lashed out my mum and dad uh police around all the time so it's just like

Yeah. Being around. Yeah. Yeah. Like I said, there were some great times, you know, but yeah. Do y'all think you want to have a big family too?

Yeah. Well, I've always been happy with the thought of having two kids, but you've always wanted three.

Three and a dog, yeah.

Well, yeah, just ask them when, do you think? I need answers.

No, well, I would happily be pregnant again right now. Like, definitely this year. And we did actually agree that after Reggie's first birthday that we would start trying.

We did agree. We did. But... Sometimes they get cold feet. Yeah. And I feel like we're not going to put pressure on it. If it happens, it happens. But otherwise, I think we are going to hold off until maybe the year after. Yeah. Wait, I'm getting so confused.

And I think for me, I am now focusing on getting hot this summer. I want like a milf body. So that's what I'm talking about.

So COVID just hit. So it was in our first year of that. And I was like, get me out of this country. And then they messaged me for the show. And I just thought, why the hell not? Like, okay. Didn't think anything of it. Didn't think I'd get anywhere near to like going on.

And then they just kind of, because we couldn't meet in person because of COVID, so we just kept having Zooms and they kept wanting to speak to me again. I was like, it's really weird. Why do they keep wanting to speak to me? I had like 4,000 or 5,000 followers, like nothing. And then, yeah, next thing you know, they said, right, pack your things, you're off. I was like, mum, I'm going, see ya.

And I had no expectations. I honestly had, really had no idea what I was letting myself into, to be honest. I was honestly just going for a good time.

you're very it was very much like live in the moment doesn't doesn't think things through too much i'm like the forward thinker and just like yeah it'd be fun let's go yeah that's literally was my yeah that was literally mine what did friends and family think about the show or like you going on my brothers initially were like oh for god's sake emily like this is just typically typical you like embarrassing us like all of this but in hindsight actually now

Instead of Lion King, we're going to watch Too Hot to Handle. He had to go see a doctor. Wait, I just heard that was fake.

off the back of it it's actually brought me and my family all closer I think it's before the show I was kind of like I was in a dead-end job like living for the weekends not really having much going for myself um had no like aspirations or anything so yeah now I'm like successful and got my together

Oh, I'm going to sit him down and watch it.

Yeah, that's going to be... Instead of Lion King, we're going to watch Too Hot to Handle.

I love... I often watch it back. I love it.

It's fine. Whatever.

no no okay all right because i wouldn't want to watch that would you want to watch your mom and dad no would you want to watch your dad in the shower yeah no you wouldn't i wouldn't but i mean you can't actually see anything no you can't see anything it's obviously very big cameras in the shower in the toilets yeah cameras everywhere yeah how so some some editors are seeing you and your privates all the time yeah you sign up for that

Yeah, you'd have to sign the dotted line.

I remember one time I was in the villa, and we had no idea. It's called the galley, where all the TV screens are for all the hundreds of cameras in the villa. And one day, do you remember walking past, and there was a secret door open, and we could see in the galley. And honestly, you could see everything everywhere, all like this. And they saw me looking in, and they went, and they shut the door.

I was like, oh my God. And they're literally living in the middle of the villa.

How much did it cost her? It was free. Big fat zero.

Well, no. What about when you nearly kissed Christina? No.

Oh, I'm so different.

I've matured so much.

we didn't yeah to be quite honest it was I wouldn't say mistake but it was unexpected yeah it wasn't a mistake it was it was it was not planned yeah it wasn't planned yeah but I just knew because before I fell pregnant with Reggie I was pregnant before but it was an ectopic pregnancy so I just knew that you know there was never any option I was going to have the baby yeah so I you know I don't really know what you want to say on it

The first pregnancy? No, this one.

Yeah, exactly. Yeah. It was going on for about a week, but I had to have the fetus removed at nine weeks. But honestly, that's fine now. I'm absolutely fine about that. You know, everything happens for a reason. But I'm just so lucky that you can still have babies after. You know, Reggie's perfect and healthy and happy. So, and the pregnancy, I love being pregnant. So it's all perfect.

this is the type of woman that other women are just so i look like a beach whale you look like a goddess beautiful so i felt beautiful honestly yeah i loved it i loved it i'd always get my bump out like i loved it i was so empowered That's incredible for you.

Yeah. Yeah, I mean, truth be told, we were quite early into our relationship still, so we were a bit skeptical what we were going to do with the baby. It was like, you know, were we going to keep it or not? We weren't sure about us at the time as well. We were going through a bit of a rough patch. But then when we finally decided to say, yeah, we're going to keep this baby,

To then find out that this was happening, yeah, it was horrible.

But I remember at the time as well, the pain I was in, it was so painful. And I was just back in paracetamol. I was just like, no, it's fine, it's whatever. But to the point where it just got excruciating. I collapsed in the supermarket. You had to carry me home, because at the time we lived in a flat, it's like a walk distance.

You had to carry me home, and then you're like, right, we need to call the ambulance. And I was like, no, no, no, I hate that kind of thing. I was like, I'm not dragging attention, I don't need an ambulance. Just give me some more paracetamol, I'm fine. And then eventually I called 111 and they were like, no, we're sending out an ambulance to you. And it all happened so quick, wasn't it?

I'm lucky we did it in time because it could have led to... Yeah, they said if I left it a day or two more, it could have been fatal.

It was growing so big in my fallopian tube that it would have burst.