Ethan Hawke

And he didn't, when I was young and becoming friends with him, he was one of the first artists I met who really didn't see self-destruction as a romantic well to draw from.

He had so much joy and love of life.

But I do enjoy playing these parts because I do understand it.

I grew up with so many men of the theater who were in so much pain, and they were some of the most ferociously intelligent and kind and good people that were full of so much self-loathing.

And when I first read the script, I was desperate to play this guy.

Yeah.

What flashes through my mind is when River and I were doing The Explorers,

We both were at a... We both loved James Dean, and James Dean smoked Camelon filtered cigarettes, and we thought it would be cool to go out, and we stole a pack of Camelon filters and went out in this field and smoked three of them.

And River turned green, and he vomited.

And when he passed, I thought about that moment, that we all have different bodies, and...

Some of us can press the limit and our bodies can handle it and we can learn from it.

And some of us turn green.

And River was very sensitive, extremely sensitive.

And it's part of his genius.

I don't know, does that make sense to you what I'm trying to communicate?

Yes, yes.

And some of us get second chances, and some of us, our DNA is hardwired to protect ourselves, and some people don't have those guardrails.

And I don't understand it, and I know that the answer is you have to know yourself.

And yes, to your question, was it a warning?

Of course it was a warning.