Ezra Edelman

So then you're caught in a space of like, well, this is weird.

I've been working really hard and there's something that's really good, but no one even knows it exists.

Oh, my God, this is like, when can I see this?

Is this coming out?

I'm like, motherfucker, like this isn't going away.

And like that was the life I've been living for the last six months.

And I'm like, no, you can't see it.

I don't feel like getting sued.

Like, what do you do with the experience of putting everything of yourself into something?

And there's this sort of like pattern of addiction that comes from like taking on something big, taking on something bigger, working really hard, seeing if you can figure it out.

Then you get some sort of dopamine hit from the world, how they respond to it.

So what do you do when you have all that, but it's five years?

And it was the most painful thing and the most difficult thing.

It's somewhere between you're damned if you do, you're damned if you don't.

Having dealt with the mishigas that has come with the fighting to try to get the film out into the world.

The...

way that the story has been framed in the world by certain people and then ultimately now the finality of the news of oh the rights to this now are in the hands of the estate but yes maybe the whole saga has officially concluded and i lost

And this happens to be such a sort of extreme high profile episode in documentary filmmaking.

Yes.

That I'm like, okay, well, let's just get this out because I am after some catharsis, if not closure, to move the f*** on.